Cepheus Malfoy (pheus) wrote in paddedrooms,
@ 2013-01-23 02:14:00

Cepheus was kind of nervous. James was away at practice and he'd decided it was time to become friends with Xavier again. Xavier had always been one of his best friends and he did love him. He still loved him, even through all the shit they'd gone through. There was no getting over the friendship love that he felt for the other boy.

So, he'd texted him the address of his new flat and asked him to come over. He'd just finished opening the containers of Thai food that he and Xavier loved so much and stuck a chopstick in the box that was for Xavier, when he heard a knock on the door. Taking a deep breath, he walked over and answered it, smiling at Xavier on the other side. "I- Hey."

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pheus
2013-01-24 12:14 am UTC (link)

Cepheus turned and grabbed the plate, but froze when James asked about Xavier. He bit his lip hard and fidgeted with the plate, then made it to the microwave to put it in. Now his stomach hurt and he wasn't sure what he was even feeling.

Was it guilt? Why would he feel guilty? He and James weren't together or anything. "No. He didn't want to stay for dinner. He had to get back to Caspar so he could ask him out officially."

He turned and looked at James. "Sometimes when you break up with someone you've loved for two years, when you first see each other again, the feelings all rush back. And he and I didn't exactly break it off in a good way. Or easily. So those feelings were still there. Whatever you heard was just.. what happened. And we're not together or anything."

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siriuslyjames
2013-01-24 12:23 am UTC (link)

It was just what happened. James wanted to grab Cepheus and shake him and tell him he was too good to do something like that to himself, to sleep with some fucker who didn't even really care about him.

"You don't need to explain anything to me. I'm not your boyfriend," James said, shrugging. "It's your body. But I just --" He stopped. He had no right to say anything and he hated it. "I don't know why you'd do that," he said. "Why you'd let him fuck you again when all he did was fuck you over and make you feel like shit about yourself when you were together."

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pheus
2013-01-24 12:37 am UTC (link)

"It was just... goodbye sex." Cepheus told him quietly, shaking his head. "It didn't mean anything. He didn't even kiss me during it." He told him with a shrug, looking at the plate as it spun in the microwave, tears stinging at his eyes.

"It's not like it meant anything." He looked at James for a moment, then shook his head when the microwave went off. "You can get that. I'm going to my room."

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siriuslyjames
2013-01-24 12:44 am UTC (link)

He didn't even kiss Cepheus during it. Like that made it okay. That made it worse. Xavier was an asshole and now James was an asshole too because he'd made Cepheus cry.

"Fuck, hold on." He reached out and grabbed Cepheus's arm. "I didn't mean to upset you," James said. "I just --" What? He was jealous? He didn't like the idea of Cepheus having sex with other people? James felt frozen in place because all of those things were exactly what this was. He was jealous. He wanted to keep Cepheus to himself. This... wasn't okay. "I... Fuck. I just think you deserve better, okay? I just don't want you to settle again."

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pheus
2013-01-24 01:06 am UTC (link)

"I didn't get him back. Did I?" Cepheus asked as he looked back at James. He shook his head and pulled his arm gently from the other boy's grasp. "He didn't choose me. No matter how much he said he missed me, he didn't choose me in the end. That'll make it really hard to settle."

He shrugged. "The food is disgusting. I tried really hard on it, but I'll understand it if you toss it and order out." He started to walk away again.

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	siriuslyjames 2013-01-24 01:12 am UTC (link)
	"Did you still want him?" James asked. He had no right to be upset about Cepheus's answer, but he just... wanted to know. "If he'd wanted you back, would you have gone with him? Even though he wouldn't even kiss you while you had sex?" He ran a hand through his hair. "I'm not going to throw your food away. Just... stay and eat with me. If you want to." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	pheus 2013-01-24 02:51 am UTC (link)
	"I liked the idea of getting him back because of Caspar." Cepheus told James with a shrug. "Not because I wanted him. But, because I wanted to hurt Caspar for stealing him in the first place. For always having him even when he wasn't around." He sighed softly and glanced at the table. "Fine. I'll sit with you while you eat." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

siriuslyjames
2013-01-24 02:55 am UTC (link)

James ran a hand through his hair, getting the chicken and potatoes out of the microwave. He didn't know if he should tell Cepheus that he'd gone to a club or not. There'd probably be pictures somewhere.

"Molly sent biscuits again," he said. "I put the tin down somewhere when I came home earlier." Threw it somewhere. "I left and went to a bar. Since you were busy." James prodded at his food for a moment, then ate one of the potatoes, chewing carefully. It was burnt and dry, but other than that. "It's good."

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	pheus 2013-01-24 03:28 am UTC (link)
	Cepheus watched James eat the potato and laughed when he said it was good. "You're a horrible liar." He told him, grabbing the plate, shaking his head. He tossed it into the trash and put the dish in the sink, then pulled out the cold Thai. "Heated up or cold?" He asked, shaking the container. "You shouldn't lie about my cooking. Maybe I should take a class." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

siriuslyjames
2013-01-24 03:38 am UTC (link)

"Cold," James said, reaching over and grabbing the Thai food from Cepheus. "Since you won't let me eat your chicken and potatoes. They weren't that bad. Burnt and dry, but other than that."

He looked up at Cepheus as he dug into the food. "I could teach you. Or Molly could try again, in person. She's the best cook I've ever met. You'd definitely learn a lot if she taught you in person. She taught me. And she loves you."

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	pheus 2013-01-24 05:11 am UTC (link)
	Cepheus laughed a bit at that. "What mamkes you think she loves me? Because she brings me biscuits? She doesn't have a reason to love me. I'm pretty much nothing." Sure, Cepheus was arrogant sometimes, but it was typically false. He wasn't actually full of himself. "There's chocolate cake." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

siriuslyjames
2013-01-24 05:14 am UTC (link)

James raised an eyebrow as he ate cold noodles out of the box. "What makes me think Molly loves you? Are you kidding? She sends you biscuits all the time and every time I talk to her she wants to know what you're up to. You're her new little favourite. I should be jealous."

He patted the seat beside him. "Sit down and stop hovering. I'm sorry I got emotional over you and Xavier, okay? I know I have no right to say anything about what you do with your body. It's yours."

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	pheus 2013-01-24 06:15 am UTC (link)
	Cepheus hadn't realised that James was emotional about it. He looked him over for a moment, then sighed and sat down beside him. "I'm not hovering. I'm just standing." Cepheus told him with a shrug. But, he found himself leaning against James. "Do you want to watch Nightmare on Elm Street with me?" (Reply to this)(Parent)

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