Hunter (Lavi: Crow) (acrowlikerabbit) wrote,
@ 2011-08-20 19:56:00

[Chase stared at the parallel bars set up in front of him, his wheelchair pointed toward one of the open ends of it. He was supposed to be waiting for a nurse or some kind of spotter before doing this but the Crow couldn't stand being in the damn wheelchair a moment longer. He hated being helpless like this and having to rely on others for so much of what he used to be able to do on his own.

A glance at the door and he put the locks on the wheels, grabbing both bars as his feet set on the ground. It felt odd, the floor under his bare feet again and Chase looked down at them only to give a rueful laugh. They looked pale and weak, but he hadn't lost much muscle mass in his legs which was something he was thankful for. His arms he needed to tone again what with not being able to lift weights because of his ribs. At least he could do that now in his wheelchair, the doctors said his ribs were as good as new again but to lay off doing any squats with them for a few more months.

But he dallied long enough, hoisting himself up onto his feet and pushed up with them as well. Immediately they started to give, knees buckling and hurting. Chase bit back a curse and pulled himself up again, arms shaking with the effort but he managed to support his weight long enough to lock his knees. Even if he was panting with the effort.]

Ha... This'll be longer than I thought...

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contravene
2011-09-29 12:40 am UTC (link)

[Allen wouldn't really know, wouldn't be able to tell Chase what real love felt like at all. He knows he loves Chase and Lavi in different ways... but he can't tell what those ways are anymore, because all his love for Lavi does anymore is hurt. The contrast, to instead be with someone that you love and feel comfort, like he does with Chase... it's almost bizarre, but it's part of why he clings to it. Can't let Chase go even though it would probably be the best thing he could do for him.

Allen smiles a very soft and just slightly nervous smile down at Chase, and he shifts a little before brushing the Crow's hair out of his face and kissing his forehead this time.]

...because you didn't. [He knows... that sometimes it probably feels a lot like Chase is the only one of them really trying in this-- whatever this is. And he's sorry it seems that way. But it's his way of showing that he wants it this way. Wants to try.

And for a moment, Allen wants to say those three little words. Wants to mean them with all his heart; and he's sure that if he did now, he would. But later on, he'd go back to his room with Lavi... and would he still mean it then?

...so he doesn't say them. Instead he lies back down again, curling up against Chase and humming. Unless he's stopped, of course.]

	contravene 2011-09-29 09:22 pm UTC (link)
	[Damn right he does. Allen would be so upset if Chase left. Allen actually relaxes a little at that, though not entirely. Still tense and rigid against Chase, but he's not clutching at his sweater anymore.] ...What did he tell you? (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	acrowlikerabbit 2011-09-30 01:48 am UTC (link)
	[He knows how Allen feels, everything coming at once, one after the other... It never lets you catch your breath and heal. But that's why he has Chase, a safe haven to run to and hide away for a while.] I can't promise that. But I'll try. [Getting hurt is part of battles. Even if he has to restrain Reseteenth until Allen can take back over, he will.] (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	contravene 2011-09-30 03:05 am UTC (link)
	[It's true, as much as Allen forgets to think of it in that way. Chase is the only place he has to hide now, and even that... it's no good when he just ends up hurting Chase because of it.] ...I wish you could. [If someday, he came back from being trapped in his head only to find Chase hurt because of him... how could he live with that?] (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)