Sam Winchester (wayward_son) wrote,
@ 2011-05-14 21:42:00

Another Night, Another Bottle
Sam Winchester knows, deep down, that he's better than this, better than letting himself drown in self-pity and a cheap bottle of whiskey, but he doesn't care right now. He doesn't care that his brother, Dean, would want him to find a way to move on with his life and get out from under the cloud hanging over him, but Sam doesn't care about that, either.

Dean is dead, and much of Sam's purpose in life went with him. Dean was the one who'd first gotten Sam into hunting, into this life of moving from place to place and helping where they could. He'd been happy in law school, leaving this all behind, before Dean came asking for his help. Every time Sam needed his brother, Dean was there to help, there to encourage him.

But when Dean needed him, Sam couldn't come through for his brother.

He takes another drink, letting the alcohol burn as it runs down his throat. The drinking dulls the pain somewhat, keeping his guilt from eating him alive completely...

...at least, until the whiskey runs out again.

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	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 11:22 pm UTC (link)
	When they were done, Ruby stepped out of the shower, wrapping herself in a towel. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 11:38 pm UTC (link)
	Sam gets out as well, wrapping himself in a towel and drying off, before heading back into the main area of the room. He finds some of his clothes that are still clean, a pair of blue jeans and a black shirt, and puts them on, along with socks and boots. "I'll get the food and come back...and then, I guess we'll figure out what needs to happen next." Sam says. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 11:46 pm UTC (link)
	"You leave me, I'll find you," Ruby said. "Don't think because we had some great sex that I'll let you go easy." She smirked a little. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	Sam returns the smirk as he walks out the door. "If I leave, how will you get more of it?" he says, the door closes behind him. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 12:20 am UTC (link)
	"This is true," she as she went to get dressed. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 12:53 am UTC (link)
	A little while later, Sam returns with a large pizza and a huge order of french fries with water and soda for the two of them. "Food is here!" Sam calls out. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:01 am UTC (link)
	"Excellent," she said, grinning. "I'm starving." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:03 am UTC (link)
	"Have at it, Demon Girl." Sam says, going for a a slice of pepperoni pizza. Once they're far enough into their meal, Sam looks at Ruby. "How do I kill Lilith?" he asks. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:13 am UTC (link)
	Ruby took another bite of her pizza before looking up at him. "It's not going to be easy, Sam," she said. "You can't just walk in there with my knife or the Colt and expect to kill her outright." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:16 am UTC (link)
	"What about both?" he asks. "Or what if the two of us do it together?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:29 am UTC (link)
	"I had been wanting to talk to you about that, Sam," she said. "You have the power to kill Lilith. You've had it all along...you just need to harness it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:34 am UTC (link)
	/That/ gets Sam's attention. "Ruby, what do you mean? What are you talking about?" he asks, certain that he'd be aware of it if he had power to kill Lilith. Hell, if he could have, he'd have killed her the day Dean died. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:36 am UTC (link)
	"Your psychic abilities...you thought you lost them when you and Dean defeated Yellow Eyes, right?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:44 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah, those are gone. Have been for awhile. If I still had them, I'd have used them by now." Sam says. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:49 am UTC (link)
	"What if I told you that I've figured out a way for you to use them again?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 02:01 am UTC (link)
	"I'm listening. How would I do this?" Sam asks, taking another bite of his pizza. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	"I can teach you," she said. "It might not be what you want to do, but I can show you how to focus your powers." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-17 11:37 pm UTC (link)
	"I need to know how to kill Lilith. Whatever I have to do, I'll do." Sam says. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-17 11:52 pm UTC (link)
	"I can show you how to do it, but they'll never get as strong as they can be without one thing, which I guarantee, you probably won't like at all." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-18 12:03 am UTC (link)
	Sam didn't like the sound of that at all. "What is it?" he asks. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-18 12:08 am UTC (link)
	"Since you got your powers by Yellow Eyes dropping his blood in your mouth and you drinking it..." Ruby sighed. "You have to drink demon blood to increase your power's strength, Sam." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-18 12:45 am UTC (link)
	She was right. Sam did /not/ like this plan. "Is there /any/ way around this? Demon blood is...addictive, to put it mildly. From what I hear." Sam says. "Do we have any other options before we go down this road?" he asks. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

witchesrwhores
2011-05-18 03:33 pm UTC (link)

"The options of you accessing your full power without it are extremely slim, Sam." Ruby said. "I can still show you how to use it, but there's only one way you'll be strong to do it, and that's drinking demon blood.

I'm not saying you have to go out and drain a new demon every night. I know your stance on not killing unless it's the only option. I'd allow you to drink my blood."

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wayward_son
2011-05-18 03:50 pm UTC (link)

"I get what you're saying, Ruby, but on the surface of things, this really seems to benefit you." Sam says.

He wants to kill Lilith with all of his being, but this? Could he really go down this road? With her?

Then again, he'd been powerless to save Dean from Lilith. Would he have had this edge if he'd started sooner?

"I'll do this, but on my terms. We start slow and you help me look for other methods in the meantime, deal?" he asks.

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	witchesrwhores 2011-05-18 04:00 pm UTC (link)
	Ruby nodded. "Deal," she said. "We'll ease you into it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)