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§ha§ha ƒuиky §hake™ ([info]zellywellywoowo) wrote,
@ 2008-02-27 14:13:00


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Current mood: flirty

James
So I was an hour and a half late for work today. I was taking my time and just felt lazy, didn't want to go in but i need the money so i just went in late. I got on MSN which I have been having trouble signing onto lately and James signs on about 15 min after I do. I haven't spoken to him in ages. He told me he missed me too much and that he hopes im on every night he gets on and im not and it makes him sick to his stomach to not be able to talk to me. I'd like to believe his feelings are real but when someone is that far away you can't ever REALLY tell.

Well he was like "You know, I love you with all of my heart but you wouldn't believe me no matter what I say and do but I wanted to get that off my chest, it sucks when so much time goes by and i can't see or talk to you" I got butterflies in my stomach. I started getting all nervous and anxious lol, felt like a highschool girl all over again talking to her crush haha it was a wonderful feeling.

Then he asked me in all seriousness "Nikki, move to England. I have my own place and want you to be with me." I REALLY got all redicuulously shy and butterflied up with that. I told him I have no passport, am terrified of planes, and can't believe he is serious. So he was like "Give me your phone number, I will tell you how dead serious I am over the phone. Besides I need your number anyway for when I get to the states"

It's so nice hearing something like that from someone you really like. It makes me happy but sad at the same time cuz I can't bank my hopes and dreams on what he says. I need to FEEL it. I need him to be IN FRONT OF ME and prove it. I have been let down too many times to just blindly fall for this kind of thing.



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[info]yellowsubmarine
2008-02-27 08:38 pm UTC (link)
awwwwwwwwwww. even if things don't go well with that, it's still fucking cute as hellllllllla.

I think maybe visit him first would be best. xD
Then you could...SEE if it's real...ya know?

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[info]zellywellywoowo
2008-02-27 09:12 pm UTC (link)
he should visit ME lol i dont ever wanna get on a plane but if it works out he will be worth it and i will go back with him ^^ I hope it works out he is the sweetest person ever and i mean he says things to me that no man has ever said to me in my entire existance. Not even bf's i dated for YEARS are as sweet and kind and raw with their feelings like he is.

You're right...even if it doesnt work out its so cute and its so nice to hear these kinds of things when ur at a low point in ur life.

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[info]ilucifel
2008-02-28 02:55 am UTC (link)
I can sympathize with the distance thing. The guy I like isn't quite that far away, but 1800 miles is still a good distance. I hope that, somehow, things work out the best for you, however that outcome may be.

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[info]zellywellywoowo
2008-02-28 05:31 am UTC (link)
I hope so too. Thank you ^^

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[info]requiemofchaos
2008-02-28 05:08 am UTC (link)
There is nothing wrong with being cautious, or even overly cautious in a situation like this. And it probably is best to wait until you get to visit each other, so yeah good choice there.

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[info]zellywellywoowo
2008-02-28 05:31 am UTC (link)
thanks, im tired of getting my hopes up :/

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[info]pinklipstain10
2008-02-28 06:24 am UTC (link)
gdhfyrjvmcvhfkjdfidnmsddldpeysnbxm keep your heart open and you just may be surprised!

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[info]mandywheeler
2008-02-28 07:53 pm UTC (link)
T___T i know what that is like. awww, i hope everything works out. T_____T.

and i feel like a boooby, but is the forum link still up and available i lost it but i wanted to go see it again D:

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[info]zellywellywoowo
2008-02-29 08:33 am UTC (link)
LOL I dont even remember it myself. I think it is let me see if i can find it i know i saved it somewhere. http://www.runboard.com/bzellsmessagecommunity

there it eeeez. I miss Engrish Academy lol.

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