Current mood:

pissed off

FUCK YOU
God I am SO sick of everyone's shit! I do SO much for everyone and everything in every fucking aspect in my life and I get NOTHING in return, nothing GOOD anyway. I get called names, I get cheated on, I get talked down to im just so fucking tired of dealing with people who I KNOW are fucking not worth my time or energy OR KINDNESS.

Im honest, so Im a bitch.

I'm not fucking you, so I'm a whore.

I don't take your shit so I'm trash.

Do I have to hang myself before anyone really gives a fucking shit? I have tons of "friends" but NONE of them are the kind I can turn to anymore. I have NONE of those and everytime I get one...JUST ONE someone takes them away from me. IM SO SICK OF IT I COULD JUST DIE. In fact i wish i WOULD just die. what the fuck!

My friends all are too wrapped up in their own lives to make time to give a fuck about anyone else but when they need someone I am supposed to be there. No one REALLY cares anymore. New people I meet give a fuck for a while, then they stop caring too. Matt was my only real friend. Someone I could cry to, talk to, and he was there for me.... and now, though he still cares, is barely a friend anymore because of his ex.

People are rotten. They are liars, cruel, fucked up.

I just want someone to hang out with me for an hour at the mall. I want someone I can call up and tell them about something that happened. I want someoen who will go with me to Old town for 30 minutes to enjoy the sunlight, fresh air and people. I want someone to fucking give a fuck.

I'm sick to death over all of this shit. When I cry, where are any of you? When you bitch about shit I am there for you and listening and truly give a fuck but I get NOTHING in return when I REALLY need a friend so fuck you. Fuck all of you.