From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 04:33 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Nope never." Sera confessed, a little embarrassed. "Not even a bad one."

When Jenny announced the two minutes, Sera couldn't help but get a little nervous. Maybe it was just the excitement of New Years or maybe she'd actually get a second chance to kiss her.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 04:55 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Really? That sucks," Jenny replied, glancing at the other girl again, before returning her eyes to the ceiling. She didn't want to look at her friend, feeling a little flutter in her stomach every time that she did. Maybe it was just New Years jitters. She always felt a little strange as midnight, maybe this was all it was..

But she doubted it.

There was silence between them, though it wasn't uncomfortable. Jenny forgot to check her phone again, and before she realized it, there was the distant sound of explosions outside. Muggles with fireworks, maybe even guns. Despite whatever laws may have forbade against it, Jenny knew that muggles loved to fire their guns on New Years. She could hear the noises clearly, as far away as they felt. "Houses must be pretty far apart out here, huh?" she asked, propping herself up onto her elbow again.

She looked seriously as Sera, swallowing hard, and resisting the urge to bite at her lower lip again.

"Happy new year," she murmured, scooting a little closer, grabbing Sera's hand. "I'm glad we're here."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 05:14 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Yeah they are." Sera added realizing what that sounds were outside at that it had to be midnight. "We can usually hear the neighbors fireworks and stuff but we can't usually see much. You can check out the window if you wanna have a look though?" Sera offered, noticing the look Jenny was suddenly giving her. "Or We could just stay right here." She scooted in towards Jenny, narrowing the space between them.

"I'm glad too." Sera said quietly in almost a whisper. With her hand in Jenny's palm she reached her other hand to Jenny's cheek, closed her eyes and softly kissed her. She could literally feel he heart start to beat faster.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 05:27 am (UTC)		(Link)

Despite everything telling her that this had the potential to be a very bad idea, Jenny couldn't bring herself to offer any resistance. There was no sense in trying to deny the fact that they couldn't go back to just friends as if the summer had never happened. For every heavy beat of Sera's heart, Jenny's offered one of the same. She felt like her heart might crawl up her throat, as her lips met Sera's.

It had been ages since she had kissed anyone. Kissed a girl, especially. It was nice; soft and careful. Unlike kissing most boys. Pulling back just slightly, Jenny opened her eyes to look at Sera, fixing her with a serious gaze. "I was an asshole to you," the blonde murmured softly. "I won't be like I was in the summer. I'd.. I couldn't do that to you again," she continued. Leaning in, she kissed Sera again, twining their fingers together with the hands that were touching.

"I never meant to hurt you like that," she whispered. "Never again. Life is too short right?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 09:54 pm (UTC)		(Link)

In the moment, Sera had forgotten all about the summer and everything that had followed. When her lips touched the blonds that had been the last thing on her mind but now that Jenny brought it up she couldn't help but think about it. She tried to push it to the back of her mind, Jenny's words reassuring her that this time I'd be different.

For once Sera was at a loss for words, her mind unable to completely process what Jenny was saying. Even if it was exactly what she wanted to hear, she had her doubts. Her thoughts relaxed when Jenny leaned in for a second kiss.

"It's Okay." Sera spoke softly into Jenny's ear. "I know you never meant to hurt me." She placed a light kiss on Jenny's neck just below her ear.

Maybe this time it would be different?

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 10:15 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Good," Jenny replied quietly, unable to help but shiver slightly as Sera's lips touched her neck. The noise outside was starting to die down as the minutes past midnight ticked by, and the house was otherwise silent. Besides the sound of their breathing, anyway.

"I don't know how to make it up to you, I was.. I wanted to tell you on Christmas. But I couldn't get away from my mom, she was like everywhere. I didn't think we were even going to be able to get out tonight," she murmured, teeth pulling at her lip as she paused. "I'm glad though. I needed to make it right, I'm.. going to be myself for the new year. All of me."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 10th, 2011 12:00 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sera noticed the silence too, with just the faint noise of the last of the fireworks going off at a distance. She liked the quiet it made every breath and every word radiate through her. All the waiting, awkwardness and avoiding suddenly seemed all worthwhile.

"I would have came to see you." Sera offered back, listening intently. Even if she was actually kind of glad it happened the way it did. "What made you change you mind?" Sera questioned softly, tickling Jenny's hand with her thumb as there fingers still remained intertwined

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 10th, 2011 12:10 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I just.. I've been thinking a lot lately," Jenny mused, smiling some as Sera tickled her hand. She gave the brunette's hand a squeeze in response, letting her head rest one her arm as she looked over at her friend. "I haven't been able to do much else except think.. strict bed rest and all. And I just think I'm starting to realize that shit is crazy right now.. at school, especially. And I'm like.. life is short. It's too short to spend it worrying what other people think about you."

Pausing for a moment, she adverted her eyes to the ceiling again, smiling faintly. "I've been screaming off a pedestal for years about bisexual rights, and with the way teenagers minds work, I'm sure everyone already thinks we're together.. so why not? I've been spending all this time thinking about what people would say, and how my life was supposed to be, but my life is what I make it. I could have another seizure tomorrow, Ella might not be there, I might hit my head, anything could happen.. I could just go down and drop dead. I don't want to risk dying unhappy. I want to die following what I feel. I've been thinking a lot about mortality. That makes sense, doesn't it?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 10th, 2011 02:59 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Yeah that makes perfect sense." Sera smiled, trying not to think about Jenny dying. She barely had her, the last thing she wanted to think about was losing her. "But don't say stuff like that." Sera laughed, nudging Jenny she pouted slightly. "You're making me worry."

Maybe she'd get Ella to teach her a few pointers in case Jenny ever had another seizure when they were a lone. It couldn't hurt, especially after feeling so helpless at the Snowflake Ball.

Sera still wasn't actually sure where her and Jenny stood, Did everyone already assume they were together? and did that mean they were now? Sera quietly wondered, too scared to ask aloud, and more so to hear the answer.

"I wish you didn't have to leave tonight." Sera smiled rolling over to her stomach. With her chin rested on her palms she attempted an adorably sad face directed at Jenny.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 10th, 2011 03:07 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Sorry," Jenny replied, smiling weakly. "I've got a case of the worst possible scenario running through my head. You can go ahead and blame my mum.. she's been worrying about things that I never even would have thought of without her rambling at me," she explained. She watched Sera turn over, smiling a little more genuinely at her, and reaching over to brush a hand against her cheek.

"I know, but I don't know if I can deal with her lecture if she catches me out. I should be good for another hour or so though.. I mean, if you wanna.. hang out," the blonde offered, letting her thumb trace absently over the other girl's lips. "Or whatever.."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 10th, 2011 08:53 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Sera definitely wanted Jenny to stay, there was no question but she didn't want her to get in trouble either so she was just going to make the best of the time they had. She kissed Jenny's thumb as it passed over her mouth. "And you call me the pervent." Sera joked, "What exactly do you mean..whatever?"

Waiting for a reply and still on her stomach Sera slowly edged herself closer to Jenny.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 10th, 2011 09:49 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny smiled slowly, her teeth pulling at her lower lip momentarily, as if in a thought. "I dunno. Just whatever," she replied, smirking and letting her thumb press over the brunette's lips again. "I wasn't even being dirty, so you are a perv," she added, her stomach tightening a little as Sera edged closer. Waiting only a second, Jenny did the same, closing the remainder of the distance between them, idly grazing her thumb again.

"I just meant whatever you wanna do."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 11th, 2011 01:18 am (UTC)		(Link)

When Jenny moved towards her, Sera didn't bother to reply, she just smiled and adjusted herself along side Jenny. She could feel the warmth of Jenny's body along her side, and she leaned into towards her.

"Whatever I wanna do huh?" She questioned. She placed a hand gently on Jenny's neck and leaned in for another kiss. This time more intense, sucking lightly on Jenny's bottom lip. Her fingers tickling lightly on Jenny's neck and down her shoulder.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 11th, 2011 01:52 am (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny closed her eyes quickly as Sera kissed her, shivering a little against the feeling of Sera's teeth grazing her lip. It almost made her whimper. She was glad, at least, they were home alone. "I hope your sister doesn't bring her girlfriend home," the blonde murmured as she pulled back some, looking at Sera with a serious expression that still held a hint of mischief.

When the fingers tickled over her shoulders, just past her collarbone, she couldn't be silent a moment longer, letting out a little satisfied groan. "Stop that, you're teasing," she muttered, reaching over and beginning to pull off the scarf the brunette had been wearing. "And you overdress."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 11th, 2011 02:40 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I don't think she'll be home for a while." Sera assured her. "If she comes home at all." Sera smirked at the look on Jenny's face. She was done talking about Tatum.

She closed her eyes and sighed lightly as the tiny noise escaped Jenny. It had to be one of the hottest things she ever heard. "Stop what?" Sera giggled, running her fingers down Jenny's arm and back up. She leaned her head forward to help Jenny remove her scarf.

She sat up and removed her sweater, leaving just the tank top she wore underneath. "It that better?"

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 11th, 2011 02:55 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Much better," Jenny replied shortly, reaching forward without any hesitation, and grabbing the front of Sera's tanktop. She pulled the brunette back down again, practically on top of her, and into another kiss. She had been hesitant at first, not sure if they'd go through with it, but Jenny wasn't going to turn around now. It felt like ages since she had been close to anyone, and with all of the turmoil going on around them, she needed to be close with someone. She needed the contact, the comfort, the reassurance, all of it. Who better than her best friend?

Her own tee was riding up slightly, exposing her taut stomach, her jeans already low on her hips. She arched a little, just the slightest, from under the other girl. Breaking off the kiss for a moment, Jenny pressed her lips beside Sera's ear, breathing in the scent of her perfume, nuzzling some against her hair. "You sure you wanna do this? With me? This.. could really change things," she whispered. "Not necessarily in a bad way, but still changed."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 11th, 2011 03:13 am (UTC)		(Link)

Laying back down with Jenny Sera breathed in deeply, letting out a quiet nose. When the blond kissed her again, she moved her hand to the bottom of Jenny's shirt pushing it up slightly to reveal more of her stomach.

"I'm sure." She breathed speaking quietly into Jenny's ear. Rethinking she moved back just a little. "What if it does change in a bad way?" It was times like these Sera really hated the tendency she had to over think.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 11th, 2011 03:25 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Don't let it," Jenny blurted quickly, adverting her gaze slightly after she spoke. There was a sheepish smile on her face, and a slight flush to her cheeks as she lay there. "I won't, if you won't."

Inclining her head a bit, to get a better look at Sera again, Jenny tried to smile a little more happily. But once Sera got thinking, so did she; they had always been alike in that way. Too much thinking. "I promise, I want this, and I.. won't regret it if you don't. If you're cool, then so am I."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 11th, 2011 03:33 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I won't." Sera spoke up. "I want this too-- more than anything." She paused briefly in thought. "Promise me something Jen?"

"No matter what happens we'll always be friends?"

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 11th, 2011 10:35 am (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny looked at Sera seriously for a moment, as if considering this. Smiling slowly, she gave a little nod, leaning in again to brush her lips past the brunette's. "Always," she murmured. "I swear, always. It's just.. upgrading right now."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 11th, 2011 11:59 pm (UTC)		(Link)

A smiled beamed across Sera's face and she gazed sweetly at Jenny. "I'm sure then." Sera repeated, "A hundred percent." She spoke softly as she leaned up and continued kissing Jenny. Starting with her lips then letting her lips trail down to Jenny's neck once again.

Her hand was still tickling lightly on Jenny's stomach as she played with the bottom of her shirt. She slowly continued to edge it up further.