From: imperfectly	Date: August 13th, 2010 02:09 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Sera blushed slightly at Jenny's comment, she put her head down and turned away so Jenny wouldn't notice. She was usually able to stay pretty cool and collected but something about the way Jenny teased made that a little difficult; even if she was hoping for that kind of reaction. Sera felt a little bad leaving Jenny in the dark like she was but the truth was she didn't have anything specific planned, apart from the picnic and a bit of bird watching. She had always been told she planned too much and thought too much, so she figured it wouldn't hurt to just relax for the day and see where things went.

Sera walked out the back door, after letting Jenny leave first. When Jenny asked if she could help with anything, Sera paused for a minutes and set down the large picnic basket just outside the house. She reached behind her and took off her backpack, "Would you mind carrying this?" She asked, still taking the last strap off her shoulder, "Its not too heavy, it just has my bird watching book, bug spray, sunscreen, that sort of thing." Sera was glad Jenny offered to help. In her effort to make the perfect picnic lunch, she may have over backed just a bit and the basket was pretty heavy.

	From: 867_5309	Date: August 15th, 2010 02:23 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I think I can handle it," Jenny replied, accepting the bag once Sera had removed it from her shoulders. She slid it onto her own, adjusting them slightly to get more comfortable, as she glanced back at the brunette. "You sure you can carry that basket? It looks like you packed your whole kitchen in there," she teased.

When she looked ahead, she was sort of in awe of the area around Sera's house. She had never been out here before, and she now found herself facing a mixture of Maine wilderness and suburbia. Looking toward the front yard, she could see neighbours houses, but definitely at a distance. When she looked ahead of them, in the backyard, she just saw the woods. She could only assume they'd have to walk through there to get to the lake Sera always bragged about. Their yard was big, and the patio they were standing on was quite nice, with furniture and a swinging chair, a barbeque, all of the typical outdoor stuff.

There was a bird-feeder hanging over near the kitchen windows, although it was currently unoccupied. It was a nice yard, a nice area, very scenic. "I like this. It's beautiful," the blonde commented softly, still taking in everything she saw.

	From: imperfectly	Date: August 16th, 2010 10:44 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Sera picked the basket back on the ground, it was a little heavy but nothing she couldn't handle. She wanted to look strong for Jenny, if nothing else. Sure she could outsmart any one of the blonds ex-boyfriends, no problem at all, but in terms of strength she knew she wasn't quite up to snuff. "It's fine. We're not going to far." Sera laughed, hauling the basket up a big higher.

"I almost did." Sera giggled when Jenny suggested she packed the kitchen. "Everything but the sink." She laughed once more, sticking her tongue out at Jenny.

Sera noticed Jenny looking around and taking everything in again, just as she has inside. "I told you it was nice." Sera bragged a little once more but with a soft smile on her face, knowing she as many times before. When Sera noticed Jenny looking in the direction of the BBQ she spoke up once more. "We'll probably have a BBQ later on when my dad gets home. That's if were even still hungry of course." Sera grinned looking down at the basket. "Don't worry we have lots of ketchup though." She teased.

She continued off the deck and down into the backyard, walking slow enough so that Jenny could still take everything in. She was really in no rush. She was just glad to be there, spending a beautiful day outside with jenny.

	From: 867_5309	Date: August 17th, 2010 04:11 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Hotdogs, right? We can have hotdogs? With extra ketchup?" Jenny suggested, brightening up significantly at the mention of a barbequed dinner. It almost made her stomach grumble, she hadn't really had anything to eat since breakfast, which had only been a bowl of Trix cereal with chocolate milk. Not exactly the perfect meal to start her day on, but it had seemed wise at the time.

She was glad when Sera allowed them to go at a leisurely pace, her eyes looking over all of the trees, the plants, and even a couple of squirrels she saw skittering along a tree branch over by the path they were heading to. "You must come out her a lot, it's really cool," Jenny murmured, glancing over at Sera with a little smile.

"I'd trade suburbia for this any day of the week."

	From: imperfectly	Date: August 17th, 2010 05:07 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Yes we have hotdogs." Sera told Jenny with a smirk. "I'll make sure my dad puts a few on for you later, since they are your favorite." Sera laughed, looking back at Jenny who was just a few feet behind her, following along. In Sera's rush to finish preparing everything, she herself hadn't had much for breakfast either, just a piece of toast that she threw in the toaster when she had the bread out to make the sandwiches.She was feeling quite hungry herself so she was pretty excited for them to dig into the basket.

"I try to come out as much as I can." Sera sighed, "Tatum, Rath and I get down her quite a bit but it can be a struggle to get them away from their games." Sera paused briefly before continuing, "There's not really many people to hang out with around here so other than them so I usually come down by myself. I get a lot of reading done down here though." She said quietly, still with a half smile on her face.

	From: 867_5309	Date: August 17th, 2010 05:13 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I know exactly how you feel," Jenny replied softly, jogging a bit to catch up more to Sera, walking more in sync with her now. "When I'm home, I love going to visit my school friends, because I really just hang out with Ella everyday, and our mom when she has days off.. I mean, not that I don't want to hang out with Ella, I love hanging out with her, but there is only so much stuff you can do around town, or even in our house. We watch the same stuff on tv everyday, eat the same breakfasts, it just gets kinda dull," the blonde explained, trailing off, and adjusting the bag on her shoulders.

"We don't even really have friends around our neighbourhood anymore. We spend almost all year gone away to school, we haven't gone to a local school with the kids who live around us in like.. years. Even when we were little, I was always sick, so I almost never got to go to class. By the time I was doing better, we got told we were witches, and it was off to Crescent City.. kinda sucks sometimes, but I'm still glad I went. And it does mean I get a lot of reading done too," she mused, shaking her head a bit.

	From: imperfectly	Date: August 17th, 2010 06:01 pm (UTC)		(Link)

It always made Sera a little jealous to hear Jenny and Ella talk about each other the way they did. To have someone there, to always spend time with; it was just like Rath and Tatum, but she of course was never as close to either of them as they were to each other. "You're lucky to have Ella." She said with a quite laugh, pausing for a moment to admire a small black-capped chickadee she saw perched on a nearby tree, while Jenny caught up beside her. "You two have way more in common then Tatum and I will ever have." She sighed a little, still starring off at the bird, and lifting her hand to point it out to Jenny. "Summer's always kind of repetitive like that I find." Sera mumbled, in a tone not usually like herself. "I can't wait to get back to school" she added, smile back at Jenny again. She tended to do that a lot she found, but just couldn't help herself.

"Same here." Sera laughed, being able to relate to just about everything Jenny was saying. She didn't really have many muggle friends around since she headed off to CCI the summer before either. She had plenty during primary school, but just didn't see much point in keeping in touch with them after, because like Jenny already mentioned, she'd get to see them once maybe twice a year.

"Speaking of books, have you read anything good lately?" Sera inquired, as the two walked on, nearly side by side, the basket swinging slightly between them as they moved forward.

	From: 867_5309	Date: August 26th, 2010 05:32 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Your sister will come around. I saw it on a documentary before, siblings tend to get closer when they're older, it's like.. some kind of psychology thing," Jenny assured the brunette, smiling a little at her. "Maybe she'll even outgrow video-gaming hours of her life away," she teased. Jenny had listened numerous times to Sera complaining about Tatum, and about her habits, and even with all of the complaining, the blonde knew she really just cared.

"Any good books? No, nothing special. I've just need re-reading some things I've had on my shelf for a while, I'm due for a really good book-store shopping run," she mused, shaking her head.

	From: imperfectly	Date: August 29th, 2010 09:34 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Sera hoped Jenny was right about that, about her and Tatum. They had been closer lately, even going to Lilith Fair together a few weeks earlier. Sera had a blast actually, which came even as a surprise to her. It was like a whole experience of empowerment,unity, pride and a whole bunch of other feelings.

"We should go sometime." Sera suggested, when Jenny mentioned the bookstore. "We could go to that one in town once school starts? Maybe see if Rowan wants to go too and make a day of it." Sera looked over a Jenny with a smile. The sun was sneaking through trees just right and hitting Jenny on the nose. Sera couldn't help but notice how beautiful she looked, when she smiled over at her friend.

Sera and Jenny continued on down the path, they had about another 15 to 20 minutes in front of them before they reached there destination. They were heading down to the huge clearing on the hill over looking the lake. It had an amazing view and was just about the perfect spot for a picnic. Today was going to be a good day, Sera thought.

	From: 867_5309	Date: September 1st, 2010 03:32 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"That would be cool, I'm sure she'd love to come," Jenny agreed softly, nodding her head. She was content just to take in all of the sights and sounds around them as they made their way down toward the lake. When they finally reached the spot, Jenny was in awe, staring out toward the lake for a long time, before even cluing in and beginning to help Sera set up all of the stuff they had brought.

She began spreading out the blanket, whipping it twice into the wind to unravel it, before settling it onto the grass. "This is so amazing, I love stuff like this," the blonde mused, glancing to her friend, grinning widely. She sat down onto the blanket, reclining comfortably, arms folded behind her head.

	From: imperfectly	Date: September 4th, 2010 01:32 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sera could see by the look of awe on Jenny's face as they came up upon the spot the she was impressed. She was pleased, she wanted Jenny to be happy, she knew she'd like it though. How couldn't she? It was the perfect spot.

When Jenny spread out the blanket Sera quickly placed the basket on the blanket and kicked off her shoes placing them on two of the opposite corners. It was quite warm out even down by the lake but the breeze coming off the water was definitely enough to moved the blanket if it wasn't secured down. "I told you it was nice." Sera said, bragging a little but with a sweet smile on her face, directed towards Jenny. She was really glad she liked it, she thought as she took a seat next to Jenny and laid back with her. The picnic could wait a few minutes, for now she was just happy to lay there and take it easy.

	From: 867_5309	Date: September 5th, 2010 12:03 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I should have listened, I know," Jenny agreed, rolling over a bit on her side, propping herself up on her arm. She looked at Sera carefully, smiling at her, and raising an eyebrow. "What made you think of this place? It's really beautiful," she murmured, head tilting in question.

Her free hand reached over, giving the brunette a little poke in the stomach. "Fess up, what's with the big fancy place? I feel like I'm on a date~" she joked, giggling.

	From: imperfectly	Date: September 5th, 2010 09:03 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I don't know really it's just the best place I could think of." Sera smiled back as she rolled over on her side to face Jenny, just as Jenny reached out to poke her.

"What do you mean fess up? Am not allowed to take my best friend to my favorite spot?" Sera replied back with a giggle, trying to play if off a little. She wished it was a date, she'd kiss the blond right then and there Part of her wanted to anyway as they laid there facing each other perfectly on the blanket.

"Don't worry it's not but how would I be doing though, I mean if this was a date?" Sera asked in a curious but confident manner, trying to control how she allowed herself to look at Jenny. It was hard to not show how she felt.

	From: 867_5309	Date: October 6th, 2010 10:51 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"You'd be doing pretty good, I guess I'd be pretty impressed," Jenny replied slowly, trailing off a bit, and fixing the brunette with an amused little smile. "You're more romantic than Charlie ever was, I'll give you that. He couldn't even make kraft dinner half the time. Don't high people love kraft dinner?"

Straightening up a bit, Jenny leaned over to the picnic basket, opening it up and pulling out one of the sandwiches Sera had packed, and getting their lunch started. She hadn't eaten since breakfast, and it had been a pretty long walk.

	From: imperfectly	Date: October 20th, 2010 10:57 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Thanks." Sera grinned shamelessly at Jenny. At least the blonde seemed amused and not completely disgusted, That was a good sign, Right? When Sera heard Jenny talk about Charlie she couldn't help but laugh, normally she didn't like hearing about him at all. She knew he was important to her but she'd seen him hurt her far too many times. Never really deliberately, Sera didn't think, he was just a boy and a teenage boy at that, not that Sera thought that was much a an excuse. She knew the blond deserved better, a lot better. And what kind of idiot can't make Kraft Dinner? Sera thought, trying her best not to laugh.

"I thought they did." Sera giggled, "Tatum and Rath eat it all the time." The brunette continued.

Reaching over into the basket, following Jenny's lead Sera pulled out the other sandwich, she was pretty hungry herself. Following the sandwiches, which they washed down with the Jones and Smoothies, which were still somehow slightly cold the two dug into the other snacks. Sera stuck with mostly candy and cookies, leaving the carrot sticks with ketchup up to Jenny. She never really understood why it was Jenny found them so appetizing. The two didn't talk much during the remainder of their picnic, their conversation was basic mixed with a combination of slightly awkward and sweet glances.

Finishing up the last of their picnic, Sera reached around to pick up some of the trash lying on there blanket. She forgot to grab a garbage bag before leaving the house so she just shoved everything back into the basket, everything except the bird book that is. She could sort everything out once they were back at the house.

Spotting a hermit thrush by a nearby bush, Sera spoke up. "Oh check him out." She smiled, pointing to the tiny brown bird, it's speckled stomach blending him in slightly with his surroundings.

	From: 867_5309	Date: October 20th, 2010 11:08 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny had been reclining back on the blanket, enjoying letting her meal digest as she did so. She had just been reaching for the book herself, when Sera spoke up. "What?" the blonde asked, propping herself up a bit better, and squinting over in the direction Sera was pointing in. She didn't see anything, and she leaned a little closer, over the brunette's shoulder.

"Oh, he's adorable! He's.. some kind of.. thrush, right?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: October 20th, 2010 11:28 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I think you're right." Sera agreed trying to get a better look at the bird. "Unless he's some kind of warbler. I think some of them closely resemble thrushes." Sera reached over for the book that was now in Jenny's hand. "Here lets see if we can find it."

	From: 867_5309	Date: October 20th, 2010 11:34 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Yeah, I find there are still a lot that I get mixed up. My dad tells me all kinds of little tips to tell them apart, but it's still a lot to remember," Jenny replied, letting Sera take the book, and leaning over more to get a look at it as she did. She was pressed against the brunette's back and shoulder now as she peered, some hair falling against her face and obscuring her view. She quickly pushed it away, tucking it behind her ear.

	From: imperfectly	Date: November 4th, 2010 11:17 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Yeah some of them are a little difficult." Sera agreed shaking her head knowingly. "There are little hints though I find." Sera continued with a slight no it all tone. "For example," The younger girl explained, "Ovenbirds have similar patterning on their stomachs but can be identified by small lightly colored rings around their eyes."

All the while well Sera was talking she couldn't help but feel a little distracted. She could feel Jenny's body pressed against her back, so close she could almost feel the blonds heartbeat. She tried her best to stay calm but it wasn't the easiest of tasks. She lost focus momentarily when Jenny pushed her hair back, she could feel the older girls breath on her neck with every word Jenny spoke.

Was she doing this deliberately? Sera wondered.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 10th, 2011 04:59 am (UTC)		(Link)

"You're just a fountain of knowledge," Jenny replied, smiling broadly. Just as quick as she had moved in on her, she was backing off, flopping down onto the blanket beneath them and spreading her arms out as she stared up above. The trees were thick, blocking most of the sky, but it was poking through in patches.

"Let's stay out here for a little while longer, then we'll move on. But it's so relaxing out here, you're lucky.. which I've said like, a thousand times about this place."

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 11th, 2011 04:42 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Okay I'd like that." Sera smiled, leaning back on her hands next to Jenny. She followed Jenny's eyes and stared up. The sun peaked out behind the clouds and was shining through the trees. It was a little bright and see had to blink. She looked to Jenny instead, still smiling.

"I'm really glad you're here." She beamed again. It wasn't the first time she told the blond that, but she couldn't help repeating it, it spoke truths. "I've missed not seeing you everyday." She continued kind of quite her eyes lowering from Jenny. Maybe that wasn't the best thing to say to her best friend but she felt it.

After spending a while longer relaxing down by the lake, taking in the outdoors, enjoying the warm air and each others company the two made there way back through the long path towards the house. The afternoon air was much hotter than when they left that morning and part of her wished Jenny felt differently about swimming. It was a great day for the lake.

Back at the Donnelly-Rousseau house, Tatum and Rath had finally dragged themselves out of bed and wear sitting at the kitchen table eating Cereal and Pop Tarts when Sera and Jenny walked it. Sera gave them both a glare, probably high already she thought, rolling her eyes as she walked past them. "Come on. Lets go upstairs for a bit." Sera turned to Jenny, motioning her through the kitchen door and away from her siblings. She didn't need to argue with Tatum right now. Not about drugs or whatever other stupid thing would come up. Not now, not in front of Jenny.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 13th, 2011 10:40 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny followed behind Sera obediently, just smiling faintly at the twins as they walked past the table. "Pretty baked, huh?" she joked, when they were heading up the stairs and beyond earshot. She had dated Charlie long enough to spot a wake-and-bake for what it was.

"I guess you're the odd sibling out," the blonde teased, lightly reaching out and prodding the other girl's side slightly. "Ella says she can't believe we're related sometimes, I know how you feel," she relented as they came to Sera's room. She flopped into the desk chair when she reached it, pulling her legs up and crossing them underneath herself.

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 14th, 2011 12:19 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sera took a seat on the edge of her bed and faced Jenny sitting in the chair across room. She wished she could sit closer too her. She smiled over at Jenny, noting her hair and how cute it looked, tousled from the slight breeze outside. She was crazy about her, even knowing Jenny might never feel the same didn't change that. Sure, Jenny gave off vibes, or at least what Sera thought was vibes, but that was it. Beyond that she had nothing.

"Do you think it's okay for two friends to be more then friends, even if both of those friends are girls?" Sera asked feeling stupid, of course she didn't care if someone else was gay, she never did.. that didn't mean she was she liked girls "Sorry stupid question I know the answer." She looked at Jenny with a smile, letting her legs swing off the side of the bed.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 14th, 2011 01:00 am (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny furrowed her brow a bit, smiling some over at the younger girl. "Sure, why wouldn't it be?" she replied, affirming just the sort of answer Sera had probably been expecting. She smiled a bit wider when Sera berated herself, the blonde girl shaking her head quickly. "No, it's not stupid," she assured her.

"Why do you ask though? Who are you crushing on over there?" Jenny joked, looking at her friend. She had known Sera was bisexual since they had met, but she had never really known the other girl to show an extraordinary amount of interest in anyone, male or female. Finding out that she might have a scandalous crush was awesome. "Can I tell Ella?" she added quickly, still grinning.

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 14th, 2011 02:04 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Oh no reason." Sera shrugged. "Just wondering that's all." Jenny always seemed really friendly and understanding of her bisexuality. It was one of the things she liked about her. She decided it was stupid to lie any more. "Uhh Actually I really like this friend of mine. You know her." Sera lifted her head and smiled across the room at Jenny. "She's really amazing." She beamed.

"No know you can't tell Ella! I mean I guess if you wanted to you could, if that's what you wanted." Sera added vaguely, realizing she probably wasn't making much sense.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 14th, 2011 02:29 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sera definitely wasn't making much sense, but Jenny understood. She had a crush on someone, and whoever it was, it really had her flustered. Jenny could understand that much; she had been there for sure. If Sera wasn't ready to tell her up front, she'd let it go, but she intended to tease.

"Really? Is it Ella then?" the blonde girl asked, laughing a little and leaning back in the chair. "Come over, whisper it in my ear, it'll be our little secret," she teased, cupping a hand around her ear dramatically. "Tell me, c'mon!"

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 14th, 2011 03:02 am (UTC)		(Link)

"No it's not Ella." Sera blushed a little. Jenny was close, "Close though." Sera's eyes shifted around the room, looking at everything but Jenny. Finally looking back to the blond she smiled. "Um I guess I could whisper it in your ear." Sera grinned. "If you promise not to tell anyone if you think it's weird." Sera laughed almost nervously.

Sera walked slowly across the room towards Jenny, pausing right in front of her. "Okay calm down, I'll tell you." Sera giggled placing her hand on the side of Jenny's head pushing her hair back behind her ear. She leaned in and whispered quietly. "It's you." Sera froze in place and waited for a response, figuring Jenny would quickly pull away she closed her eyes and waited.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 14th, 2011 03:26 am (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny was so giggly and in such a mood to tease, she was barely listening to what Sera actually said. The connection between how close she had been went right over her head, until Sera actually spoke to her directly, right up against her ear. It made Jenny shiver, leaning back more fully in the chair. Her smile faltered, still present but a little apprehensive.

"What?" she asked cautiously, not sure she had heard that right. "Who?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 14th, 2011 03:43 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sera tilted her head slightly, looking Jenny directly face to face now "You Jen. I like you." She spoke softly, she wanted Jenny to know she really meant it.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 14th, 2011 03:50 am (UTC)		(Link)

Well, that settled it then. It was out there, and there was no denying the feeling that came over her when she heard it, really heard it. Clenching in the pit of her stomach, tingling down into her legs. She was glad she was sitting down. Jenny tried to keep a straight face, but she couldn't help a slightly nervous smile.

"Me?" she echoed, her voice cracking slightly. She stared into Sera's face, trying to read her, and failing. There was no deciphering if this was a joke, but she had a feeling it wasn't. Sera looked about as serious as a heart-attack. But then again, that was typical.

Swallowing hard, Jenny closed her eyes and leaned forward, pressing her lips somewhat awkwardly against Sera's. It made Jenny's legs shake, even sitting in the chair.

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 14th, 2011 04:06 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sera wasn't really sure why it was happening. But suddenly Jenny was kissing. Jenny hadn't really given much of a response otherwise and Sera couldn't really read what she was thinking. Does this mean she feels the same way? Sera asked herself. She kissed Jenny back not wanting to miss the moment she been thinking about for a while.

"What was that for?" Sera asked with a big smile, finally pulling away from Jenny. She moved back just enough to get a good look at her face, she still couldn't tell what she was thinking. She put her hand on Jenny's knee. "Omg are you shaking? Are you okay" She asked concerned. "I shouldn't have said anything."

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 14th, 2011 01:52 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"No," Jenny blurted, before she could stop herself. She stared back at Sera, still shaking, still unsure of what to say next. What was there to say? This was her best friend. Other than Ella and Charlie, this was the person she was closest to, told the most to. It wasn't like Quinn, it wouldn't be clean cut and simple, friendships and relationships were so.. messy.

More than anything, she didn't want to hurt her. What if she didn't even really like it? What if Quinn was just different? And if she gave Sera that false hope, and then just let her down..

"I think I have to go home," she continued, adverting her eyes finally, staring toward Sera's bed instead of her face. It was hard, with them being as close as they were. Sera was leaning in, practically in her lap, and Jenny's heart was racing despite itself.

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 14th, 2011 02:44 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Sorry." Sera appologized. "Forgot I said anything. You're my best friend. I never should of told you." Sera lowered in head and backed away from Jenny just slightly, not losing her eyes. "I'd rather be your friend. I promise." Sera felt a little stupid. She hated it. "I understand. You don't have to go though, I can sleep on the floor and we can pretend this never happened." Sera tried to fake a laugh.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 14th, 2011 05:02 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny listened to her, eyes still staring off, trying not to look into Sera's but sort of failing. It was hard not to look at her, to listen fully to her when she spoke. She had an authoritative tone, it was almost.. well, sort of sexy.

Shaking her head to rid herself of that thought, the blonde pushed the chair back slightly. "No, seriously I.. it's not you," she began, pausing before she automatically delivered the next more common line. "It really is me," she murmured, looking up at Sera. "I just can't-- I didn't mean to make you think I was.. like, or anything. I'm not sure that I'm-- sorry."

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 14th, 2011 05:40 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Don't apologize you have nothing to be sorry for. I shouldn't have said anything." Sera repeated. "Actually I'm glad I did." Sera spoke up again. "You're my best friend like I said. You deserve to know. I just wish I didn't ruin your visit." No wonder Sera usually avoided this type of thing, it wasn't easy.

"You're right. I had no right to throw that on you. I don't even know if you are either, you probably aren't, I guess I just hoped." Sera rambled on lowering her eyes from Jenny. It was harder to look at her.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 14th, 2011 07:01 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"But I'm not-- I don't know. I could be, I mean.. I don't know," the blonde managed, knowing she wasn't making any sense, but unable to express it any other way. "Sera, I just can't. I'm scared we might--"

Get attached, for one. What if they did, and she wasn't even bisexual after all? Her mind was racing with possibilities. How did you know? People always said they just knew, and Jenny wasn't sure what she knew right then.

"It's my fault. I made you think I was.. like, I didn't try to flirt," she murmured, standing up from the chair, looking away from the other girl, clearly embarrassed. Did she try to flirt? Sometimes, maybe. But not like this, it was just for fun.. right?

"I'm sorry," she blurted, finally looking back at Sera. "I really should go."

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 15th, 2011 07:57 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Its okay Jen really?" She lifted Jenny's chin with her hand looking her in the eyes. "It okay if you're not, and it's okay if you have absolutely no idea. It's okay all of it Jenn. You'll figure it out." Sera let her hand slide across Jenny's cheek.

"You didn't make me think anything. I just like you." Sera spoke softly, walking away from, she sat down cross-legged on her bed. "You didn't do anything. I'm such a terrible friend for throwing this on you." Sera signed leaned her head against her palms resting on her knees.

"I understand." Sera spoke again, Jenny had every right to be freaked out. She reached down and grabbed Jenny's bag next to her bed and leaned out to meet the blond half way. "Really don't be sorry though, I'll see you at school, okay?" Releasing the bag, she tried to fake a smile.

	From: 867_5309	Date: February 15th, 2011 08:18 am (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny felt terrible. She reached out to take the bag, only pulling it to herself when Sera released it. She looked at the brunette, wanted to say something, but didn't know where to even begin. It was so much more complicated than it was coming across, and Sera was her best friend, she didn't want to leave her with the wrong idea..

She just didn't know how to explain at all. It was like being put totally on the spot.

"You don't have to be sorry either, I'm just a freak. I shouldn't have led you on," she finally managed, clutching her school bag tighter. "See you at school," she murmured, turning and heading out of Sera's room. She practically took the steps two at a time, heading for the living room.

This was such a mess, she had to get home as soon as possible. She'd need to cry it out before she went home, she'd have to use the whole walk back to her house, plus think up an excuse for being back so early. She had been planning this visit for weeks, and now it was just gone to shit.

Too bad she couldn't just say that. She at least hoped Ella wouldn't notice she had been crying when she got there. She'd have to get herself together before that happened. It was looking like a longer day already.

	From: imperfectly	Date: February 15th, 2011 06:56 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Walking over Sera turned the knob on her bedroom door and stood holding it open for Jenny as she left. She felt so bad, she could barely look at Jenny. She ruined everything, she knew it. "You didn't, you're not.. don't be so hard on yourself." Sera tried to add comfortingly but Jenny was already half way down the hall way. Whispering a quiet, "C-ya at school." She turned and closed her bedroom door, leaning her back against it.

She fell to the floor and put in hands to her face, just as the tears started. What had she done? She wished she never told Jenny. Part of her wished she never liked her at all but the other part couldn't forget the way Jenny would look at her sometimes.

She leaned back and pulled her knees up to her chest. Everything was so confusing and screwed up and for once she didn't know if there was even anything she could do about it.