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h e n r y ([info]fictitious) wrote in [info]valesco,
@ 2013-03-29 18:41:00


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Entry tags:delilah spinnet, elizabeth fortescue, group, henry wadcock, ian bell, kendall broadmoor, miles lufkin, mirabelle jasper, rian kettleburn, richard house, rose knightley, rupert brookstanton, scarlett rabnott

Charity Dinner! Open to All! For Saturday!



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He stared at his reflection in the back of the bar area, his face refracted by the different panes of glass. Henry had long left his assigned seat at a table full of some of the highest donors of the night. They had found it to be such an honor that he was seated with them, that to be dining beside someone who must be so strong to go through this travesty was something to brag about. Henry had silently and barely acknowledged them, allowing their obsession with themselves and their egos to draw the conversation away from him.

The empty glass cracked loudly against the counter of the bar as he finished the drink. Henry could feel himself starting to feel slow and sluggish, but if he was forced to be here then he was going to do it on his own terms. If that meant getting so pissed that he slept under the bar for the rest of the night, then so be it.

Someone slipped onto the stool beside him, but seeing as there was no one that Henry wished to speak to tonight, he dropped his gaze back to his empty glass and tapped the side so that it could magically fill up once more.


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Delilah
[info]brickhouse
2013-04-04 10:46 am UTC (link)
Rich rarely experienced the feeling of looking into a crowded room and only seeing one person. In fact, the arresting jerk and tunneling of vision was something he'd thought his mind only reserved for the late Deidra McKinnon. Tonight, however, he was being proven wrong because the moment that he spotted Delilah, no one else in the room existed to him.

Having no idea what had happened to her during the outbreak, Rich had been distraught throughout his delirium. He'd been told that even in his near-death state, he'd called out for her and asked for her, though he knew she wasn't even in the country. After the virus had passed and he'd been allowed an owl again, Rich had immediately tried to send her a message. All he knew was that she was out of the country and he had no idea how else to get in contact with her because she wasn't around in the journals. Then someone had told him that he ex had died from the virus and Rich was beside himself with worry.

Now though, here they both were and she was all Rich could see. He was given such pause that he couldn't move, he couldn't even speak. Did she even want him anymore? What had happened to her? Gods, if only he could make himself move.

Delilah suddenly glanced in his direction. Their gazes met and Rich was stating across the room, not paying much attention to where he was going or who he was squeezing or brushing past. Then he was standing in front of her her, his hands flexing at his sides for want to hold her, and all he could say was a quiet and somewhat relieved yet tight, "Hi."

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-05 01:23 am UTC (link)
Delilah was so done with being sick, she almost threw away the advert for the Charity Dinner at first sight. That stupid virus had stolen a month and a half of her life and she didn't want to spare it another thought. She would donate, of course, because at least she didn't die while in Istanbul, but going to a dinner? No that was to much.

Or so she thought. Just as she was about to toss the paper, she caught the list of names of those who passed. Delilah read it three times before she collapsed into the nearest chair. Her mouth dried as the realization that she had not read wrong dawned on her. She had always intended to go fix things with Scott. Although, they would never really be fixed but, Delilah had really cared for him, more than her actions ever showed and she hated how things were left. She had always hoped that one day, she could truly and sincerely apologize to him and make things right.

Now she would never have that opportunity. She supposed she really didn't deserve it either.

There was no way that Delilah could sit at home and not attend the event. She didn't say anything while she got ready, or during the dinner, in fact she had almost been in a stunned silence since finding out, only responding to her brothers' direct questions.

So when she caught Rich's eyes, Delilah wasn't sure what to do. She reached up to twirl the ends of her hair between her fingers before remembering that she had pinned it up for the evening. After an awkward moment of trying to figure out what to do with her hands, she settled for twisting her fingers together. She hadn't spoken to him since before she left for Istanbul. And then she got sick, and Nora confiscated her journal, which she hadn't yet bothered with. Then she was all about catching up with Charlie, and now there was the fact Scott was dead. She had been home for a couple weeks now, and she hadn't realized that she had forgotten Rich until he was standing in front of her.

What was she suppose to say to him? Considering the circumstances, it felt awkward for her to be with him. Even if he was her boyfriend. That she had forgotten about, again. "Hello," she offered quietly looking around the room. What was she doing with her life? She couldn't just keep leading these boys around like she did. Just look what happened to Scott. The virus certainly wasn't her fault but everything she put him through before that sure was. "I didn't realize you were coming-- I mean-- well--" She wrung her hands desperate for the words to come to her. "Hi."

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-05 03:57 pm UTC (link)
Rich canted his head and watched Delilah with knowing concern. She never responded to well to being emotionally put on the spot, which he didn't mean to be doing, but he realized that was exactly what his presence was doing to her. He didn't understand why him being there was making her squirm, but he saw that look in her eyes, the guilt-ridden one with hints of fear and attempted strength. Rich had seen that look before, and he hadn't enjoyed seeing her fret then, either.

"Let's get some air," he quietly suggested with a duck of his eyes and slight frown. For once, though, Rich didn't just hope Delilah would follow his lead or take it on her own. As Rich passed her, he looked up through his lashes to her face before he reached out and took her fingers for a tender squeeze. He held onto her hand and waited for her to move with him so they could go outside, not necessarily to talk, but to simply get away from everyone else.

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-09 12:32 am UTC (link)
Delilah let Rich lead her from the room. It was a good idea getting away from everyone else. She had already been feeling like she didn't belong before Rich showed up. She wasn't prepared for the evening as it was let alone talking Rich.

She followed behind mindlessly while her thoughts ran wild. She didn't understand why seeing him here was causing such a tightness in her chest, just that it wasn't suppose to be this way. Everything was suddenly complicated, or maybe it had always been that way and she just ignored it. Either way, it wasn't fair that she was leading him on like she was when she didn't even know what she wanted anymore. "Rich," she said it so quietly, Delilah wasn't certain he heard her, but the fact that she shopped following and let her hand fall from his would grab his attention if he didn't.

All she wanted to do was get back to dueling. Forget that she had ever been sick. Forget that Scott had died, that she cheated on him. That she technically cheated on Rich. Perhaps if she just went back to work with no distractions, she wouldn't feel so crazed. Maybe the guilt would ebb. "I don't think I can do this."

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-09 01:05 am UTC (link)
Rich had led them outdoors, out to patio area, where they could talk and not have eyes and ears on them because he'd a feeling that regardless of how elated he was to see Delilah, she was going to take the opportunity push him away like she'd done so many times before. He wasn't even shocked when she let go of his hand. Turning at the hushed sound of his name, Rich tried to keep his face straight because he didn't want to lay a guilt trip on her, but it was impossible to not feel the tiniest bit desperate. They hadn't seen each other in so long and he wanted -- no, needed to know she was okay and that they were okay.

Breath catching and features wincing, Rich ducked his face momentarily because he had to get a grip or he was literally going to make Delilah run with everything he was dying to say to her. "Delilah," Rich began, his voice as tight as his chest felt. He lifted his hands to her in hopes that she would take them when he said. "You have no idea how much I don't care about anything else, right now -- about how long we were apart or what happened before now or anything that happened during the outbreak. I don't care." He paused so swallow roughly. "I didn't bring you out here to talk, all right? I brought you out here so you don't have to worry about someone listening. I brought you out here because it's hard for me to breathe around you and honestly, I was just hoping you'd let me hold you awhile."

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-09 01:45 am UTC (link)
Delilah stared at Rich's hands as he spoke, keeping hers at her side, shaking her head slightly. He was being so kind, incredibly sappy, but still kind. Rich always was no matter what she did. Some days it made her feel like the luckiest girl in the world, other days it made her skin crawl just a bit. Like she wasn't doing enough to deserve it.

They were far from being on equal footing when it came to emotional investments.

She forced herself to look up to Rich, a mistake in retrospect, his face always having a talent for distracting her. Also knowing that she was going to make it look even sadder than it already was just made things difficult. "I don't think that is a good idea."

She forced the words out with some difficulty. Unable to look at Rich, Delilah's eyes drifted down to her shoes. "Everything is so," her hand fluttered as she searched for a word, "This is not how things should be. Somehow I got to the point where I don't feel like I'm in control anymore. That if things keep like they are now, I am going to wake up one day and not know who I am anymore."

Delilah hadn't realized how true the words were until she had spoken them. And now that they were there hanging between the two of them, she needed to act on them. "You are so sweet to me, and have never judged me, but I judge me."

She wiped at the tears welling in her eyes. "I am so sorry, but I can't-- this-- we--- How can this work if I don't even know who I am anymore?"

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-09 02:27 am UTC (link)
Rich shook his head and took a small step forward, not meaning to encroach, but needing to get close enough that she couldn't simply disapparate without taking him along. "But the things you're talking about are the ones that don't matter -- not now, not after everything that's happened," Rich tried to reason, speaking with his hands and grasping at the air. He sighed, not sure if what he'd said even made sense.

"Delilah, I'm not trying to make you do anything. I don't want to make you do anything. I want you to decide to do something because it's what you want," he said it all in such a rush that he had to pause to think back over the words. He ran his lips together and let his hands droop because she was crying and all he wanted was to hold her, let her know it was okay to feel out of place after being away for so long.

Pulling out his wand, Rich made a flick with his wrist and summoned a cloth napkin from inside that he caught and held out her so she could dry her face. Every joint and bone was aching as he looked at her. Seeing Delilah this upset just made him sick.

"Relationships work because of what happens when you're apart, not because of what happens when you're together," Rich explained quietly. "You need space and I get that, but Delilah, that doesn't mean if I give you space that I don't want you around. If anything, I'm going to be more certain than ever of how I feel about you by letting you go."

"I don't -- I don't worry about you not coming back anymore," he stammered. "That's not the point of how much I care about you. Delilah, my feelings do not hinge on you wanting me. They hinge on you being happy. So, please, do what makes you happy. I can't stand not seeing you happy."

His mouth clamped shut after that. Rich couldn't explain why Delilah made him ramble like he did, but it had to count for something, right?

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-09 06:12 pm UTC (link)
Delilah tensed up as Rich took another step closer to her. He wasn't listening! The things she was talking about did matter, especially now. This wasn't about them, it was about her and how she felt about herself. She had no idea how to explain other than the words she had just used.

"Your feelings shouldn't hinge on me at all. That-- that will just lead to heart break. I'm not happy Rich, and that has nothing to do with you. You didn't cause it, you can't make it better. I thought you could, I tried but this is not me."

She bit her lip looking away from Rich. Her words felt so cliche, but it was true. It would be cruel for her to let this go on, it would be much worse down the road. "I am so very sorry, but I think it would be best if I go."

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-09 09:40 pm UTC (link)
Rich let out a slow, soft breath that wasn't quite a sigh. He knew he wasn't going to be able to get through to her, not tonight when she was in this state of mind. Maybe he'd get a chance again to try to do right by her, and maybe he wouldn't, but he couldn't let her go without getting a few words in for her to think about.

"If you're going to go, you're going to go. I won't try to stop you because you are your own person and no one should be making those decisions but you," Rich began quietly. He watched her face, though he eyes were downcast. "Honestly, I think you would be better off if you didn't go at this alone. I think you should have someone there to support you -- not necessarily to always say 'it's okay' but to be there so you're never feel alone no matter the choices you make."

Then Rich did sigh before cautiously reaching out to take one of her hands and hold it between his. "You're brilliant, Delilah. You're brilliant and people want things from you for that reason." He pressed his lips together and shrugged slightly. "I think you're upset because you're expecting me to be as demanding as the rest," he frowned, "but I'm not like that, Delilah. I'm not going to demand anything from you. I'm going to hope and I'm going wait, and maybe that's what threw you off course -- the patience."

Giving her fingers a squeeze, Rich tried to duck and twist to get a look at her eyes when he whispered, "Maybe one day, you'll see that it's not such a bad thing to have your world change."

Letting go and stepping back, Rich breathed tightly because it really did hurt to have her saying she wanted to leave and that she didn't want him, regardless of whose fault it was. She wasn't going to come to him for comfort anymore and he kind of wanted to cry.

"Take care and don't be so hard on yourself," Rich told her as he shoved his hands in his pockets and started to turn. He didn't want her to have to feel like she was leaving him stranded. "You're only human, you know?" he finished with a weak smile before starting to walk, each step feeling like he might crumple, but willing himself not to look back. She didn't need to see how wounded he was. That just wouldn't be fair.

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