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h e n r y ([info]fictitious) wrote in [info]valesco,
@ 2013-03-29 18:41:00


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Entry tags:delilah spinnet, elizabeth fortescue, group, henry wadcock, ian bell, kendall broadmoor, miles lufkin, mirabelle jasper, rian kettleburn, richard house, rose knightley, rupert brookstanton, scarlett rabnott

Charity Dinner! Open to All! For Saturday!



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He stared at his reflection in the back of the bar area, his face refracted by the different panes of glass. Henry had long left his assigned seat at a table full of some of the highest donors of the night. They had found it to be such an honor that he was seated with them, that to be dining beside someone who must be so strong to go through this travesty was something to brag about. Henry had silently and barely acknowledged them, allowing their obsession with themselves and their egos to draw the conversation away from him.

The empty glass cracked loudly against the counter of the bar as he finished the drink. Henry could feel himself starting to feel slow and sluggish, but if he was forced to be here then he was going to do it on his own terms. If that meant getting so pissed that he slept under the bar for the rest of the night, then so be it.

Someone slipped onto the stool beside him, but seeing as there was no one that Henry wished to speak to tonight, he dropped his gaze back to his empty glass and tapped the side so that it could magically fill up once more.


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Mira!
[info]mileshigh
2013-03-31 08:28 pm UTC (link)
He held her indecently close for a pair that was on the dance floor of a charity event. Miles' grin couldn't be wider as he looked down at Mira, and he wondered how long they would have to be here for his publicist to be happy. Yes, yes, it was for a good cause, but his bank account had already donated enough on his behalf; was much more time necessary? After the freedom of traveling wherever and whenever he pleased for the past two months, Miles did not like this idea of being forced into one place. Yes, they had returne to grand old England, but that had only been acceptable because the vixen in his arms had also made her way back home.

Morocco had been a very productive detour, but when it came to Mira Jasper, one was always left wanting more.

"Do you wish to stop?" he asked as the music changed melodies. It was more of the same classical, formal music that had been playing all night long, and while Miles was expertly trained in each of the dances' steps it was not the best music to maintain his close encounter with Mira. His hand pressed harder into her back as if answering the question for her, but Miles could be easily swayed by any of Mira's suggestions.

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AXE
[info]flower
2013-03-31 10:24 pm UTC (link)
This dinner was very nice and for a very important cause, but Rose couldn't exactly say her decision upon attending was purely charitable based. Not that she didn't believe the V2 Virus was a worthy cause, or St. Mungo's a worthy recipient, because they were, and she had dutifully donated upon arrival, but with her past week, there had to be a more important reason for letting herself get dragged by her publicist to a benefit dinner, or even more being parting from Thomas, than a casual night of dinner and drinks.

And there was, she thought, as she all-too-contently thrust her lips to Axe Brookstanton's sorely missed ones. Yes, a bit of a more sustaining reason, and Rose was relieved to think that her quiet belief he would be here tonight was fully met. They hadn't seen each other since Egypt, having only spoken through journals in the meanwhile (Axe's riveting rehashing of his journey to Calliope Publishing proved to be quite an entertaining and alarming read), so it was settling to know... she hadn't really thought, just simply assumed, he would be here as well, and that her thoughts had been met.

Was that wrong? She gripped the fabric of his front, letting her other hand clutch the side of his neck tightly while attempting to not let his expertly pleasurable his hands get the best of her. It was, wasn't it? Hiding away in a dark isolated corner, heatedly going at it with someone that had been mutually deemed not the best of ideas of becoming involved with. They were back in Great Britain now, things were different, and while she had felt comfortable and secure with whatever this was between them, that inherent understanding didn't provide the best of answers for others who might find this development troubling.

Others. Her eyes opened unceremoniously, and Rose felt a deep sign build within her. It was criminal how such unfortunate timing her thoughts had.

"Axe," Rose let out hoarsely, distractedly, and faintly as she attempted untangling herself from him. They needed to... something needed to... her heart began to beat heavily (in addition to beating excitedly), and she swallowed thickly in an attempt to calm her distracted and jumpy thoughts.

"We just--" she began, referring to their recent recent resolution that they shouldn't, mustn't be together. That had lasted long. "What are we doing?"

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[info]incharge
2013-03-31 11:37 pm UTC (link)
He braced his arm flat against the wall and pressed his forehead to it, closing his eyes and breathing deeply. They had made a sensible decision in staying away from one another. Being entwined in a corner at some public event, no matter how dark the corner, was not in keeping with that decision.

Axe couldn't say what had propelled him to come tonight. He'd made as sizeable a donation as he could manage, then spent a considerable amount of time roaming aimlessly, avoiding people he had no wish to speak to (all of them). Rose had appeared, he had seen her from the corner of his eye. They'd locked gazes, and…

Rose had to concentrate on her friends, and Axe needed no reminders about the love lost between he and they. He remembered all to well the problems that had arisen amidst some of his own teammates upon learning he had been involved with Rose. Though Axe knew he was playing on borrowed time, he intended to bring the Kestrels back up to the top for as long as he could. That wasn't possible with a rift among players.

There was also, he supposed, the obvious differences between Rose and he as people, and that they were undoubtedly terribly suited for each other. Axe loathed emotional entanglements, which encompassed all people and the relationships they insisted on forging between themselves, when Rose had uprooted her vacation without a thought to be with a friend in need. Try as he might, however, he could not keep his mind from drifting back to the blissful weeks they had spent together where none of those differences had seemed to matter.

But seclusion on a distant paradise was not anything comparable to their real lives on the bustling isle of Britain.

"An idiotic thing," he said, letting out a harsh laugh. Axe opened his eyes and turned his head slightly so his gaze rested on Rose. "I do not know."

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[info]flower
2013-04-03 12:26 am UTC (link)
She exhaled a couple heavy breaths and leaned back into the wall as it felt like a heavy weight had been applied to her shoulders. Rose's gaze dropped, thinking at least she would need to focus on something as mundane as the floor to help her think, but even that proved unhelpful. So, instead, she tilted her head back and looked up at the dark ceiling.

But doing so proved to be just as useless, for she realized she didn't feel confused about her feelings or him, but simply torn between wanting what she wanted and knowing better. She liked Axe, he had surprised her in many different ways over the past few weeks that had only led to a full-fledged, steadily blossoming affection. But, with that came the entanglements of reality, and other people, and... it was a struggle to discern... if it would be worth the risk of...

Rose had pulled her hands back in an attempt to dislodge herself from him, but they now felt heavy and uncomfortable at her sides, out of reach from him. So, despite knowing it unwise, they made their way back to Axe's neck, but in a much gentler fashion and grip than before. Her fingers picked up to brush lightly along the edge of his hairline.

"Well maybe if we can keep this quiet, then... " Rose hesitated, not knowing how to finish that thought. Then what? Perpetually hide this relationship from-- Thomas, it was only ever her concern about Thomas. She knew he loathed Axe, even if he insisted otherwise, so she couldn't begin to imagine how wildly unwell he would take any news concerning them being a... them. And, because it was unavoidable, with being back in Great Britain, her thoughts fumbled to Octavius. They hadn't seen each other since November, yet the mere thought of him propelled her into loosening, then eventually dropping her hands from Axe altogether again, along with making her chest ache painfully. After everything that had happened, she couldn't... do that to him.

Frowning deeply now, her hands went to rub the back of her neck, eventually pulling together under her chin. "I don't want to stay away from you," Rose said slowly, surprisingly keeping a cool, unheated face despite such a timid declaration. "But.."

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[info]incharge
2013-04-03 01:07 am UTC (link)
When he felt her fingers on his skin, Axe inhaled sharply, watching her intently through his slitted eyes. But the touch was brief, and his lungs barely constricted before Rose dropped her hand again.

"But," he agreed, the corners of his mouth tilted up in a small, humourless smile. "It is… difficult."

It had only been a matter of time until this conversation happened. Axe—he who loathed, feared, and hated all relationships— should now be cheering, or breathing a sigh of relief that it had, but the desire was entirely lacking. The most surprising part of that was that he wasn't surprised he didn't feel that way. Somewhere, at some point in time, when he hadn't been paying attention, an uncomfortable knot had formed inside of him. It pained him only slightly to admit the witch standing next to him could pull handily on the string leading to it.

Therefore, it was a saving grace he didn't have to explore the annoyances, terrors, extreme highs and startling lows that accompanied such knots and entanglements. Feelings were irrelevant if acting on them they created real, pressing concerns. Axe should his head slightly. "No, we … were thinking correctly, that we should no longer see each other," he said. His other hand, propped on his hip, now balled into a fist. "It is troubling—complicated."

That was a truth neither of them could deny.

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[info]flower
2013-04-03 02:41 am UTC (link)
But did that mean it wasn't worth fighting for? Providing a chance, lending time to help establish something... that might... be exciting, and worthwhile, fulfilling and happy. Rose had been struggling for many months to experience genuine happiness again after her taxing break-up with Octavius, and after feeling miserable for so long it had been him, Axe Brookstanton, that had somehow managed to pull her out from the deep hole of desperation that she had drowned herself in.

How could she--- she didn't want to give that up, she felt like she could almost finally breathe again, was functioning without that foggy haze clouding her mind and eyes, and... was it wrong to want to hold onto that, not so readily give up on the one thing that provided that? Her hands clasped together feebly, already feeling the uneasy ramifications of pulling out such strong thoughts concerning him. There was perhaps a deeper, more scarred part of her that was unwilling to divulge any kind of affection towards Axe incase it was unreciprocated, which only added to her hesitation.

Her lips pressed together in a discontented manner. Everything was always complicated, troubling, and difficult, why couldn't it just be simple? Though, she supposed, nothing in her life had ever been simply done, so why should it be now? The old feeling of creeping angst began to fill her, and Rose tried her very best to focus on the wizard before her instead of those old emotions.

The more she stared at him, the more compelled she felt to forgo all these burdening thoughts. Simply follow how she felt, and deal with everything else has it came in stride. Wouldn't that be nice, for a change? One of Rose's hands trailed to her face, and she held her fingers to her lips for a few moments as she thought. Or, thought about wishing to not thinking anymore.

And then, very slowly at first, she began to inch back toward him, until all at once, Rose took him back in fully and---

"We're not together," she managed between resuming their heated exchange and crushing her lips back to his. If she had to say it out loud, albeit in between heavy breaths, then so be it to calm this logic. "This isn't dating--- nothing official---" A lump formed in her throat, but she paid no mind to it.

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[info]incharge
2013-04-07 05:57 pm UTC (link)
He was brooding, lost in his own thoughts and missing Rose's moves until she was right in front of him, grabbing him. In a second, he felt his back knock against the wall as they wrapped themselves around one another with much more abandon than was wise in a public setting.

His hands gripped her waist tightly before he gave a slight growl and twisted them so he could heft her up into his arms, leaning them both into the wall for support. It was as though every word they had spoken before this moment counted for nothing. Had they made good points? Axe was certain they had, or at least, he had been a moment ago, before every thought and the ability to think evaporated entirely. Friends, teammates, happiness, fears, intimacy, all that had been buzzing in his head was gone, leaving nothing but feverish silence. Axe barely remembered talking at all, let alone being the one to discourage even secretly attempting to see one another.

After all, Axe Brookstanton was not, had never been, and would never be, the one to do the right thing.

Like now, when his hand could not stop the path it was tracking, from beneath her rib cage to her thighs, each time daring to tug her hem further up. Vaguely, he heard the words she mumbled against his mouth, trying not to pay them any meaning though they eventually pervaded his consciousness.

"We are nothing at all," he agreed, before his other hand slid between the nape of her neck and the wall, fisting in hair and crushing her feverish lips back to his.

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[info]flower
2013-04-09 05:33 pm UTC (link)
Her skin blazed back alive, her toes curled within her shoes, and her spine arched as Rose inhaled a shuddering breath. All the worry, and anxiety, within her slipped away as Axe wrapped his hands around her, hoisting her to lean against the wall. She supposed that should concern her, his ability to make her neglect any and all rational decision making, but his hands and his lips were far too intoxicating for her to think much beyond that he wasn't currently rejecting her.

Hooking one arm around his neck, Rose braced the other against the wall for support, though it was little use for how efficiently he had propped and pinned her. Her free hand then moved to stop his determined one by her thighs, under the pretense that no matter how much they had hidden themselves away here, it would be important to subdue their holiday habits. This wasn't just some isolated beach, or secluded rove of trees, or abandoned hillside, or long-forgotten Egyptian--- there were actual people downstairs, all around in this building that could quite easily---

--- just have heard that loud moan she just produced. Her aching body for him would have been embarrassing (later it would be, yes), if all her reservations hadn't just flown out the window with her apparent control of her own body. So, because there really was quite nothing stopping her now, Rose instead of holding it back, simply guided (shoved) Axe's hand under the hem of her dress entirely. Her hand then moved to grip his shoulder tightly.

As an afterthought, while her legs hitched to wrap around his waist as much as they could, Rose remembered that there had been a serious conversation being carried. Her fingers dug into the back of his neck as she scrambled together any kind of response.

“Settled,” Rose let out, not having taken her lips away from his for long this whole time, and not about to start now. Her other hand, not firmly wrapped near his neck, however, had done a bit of roaming, and was now currently fumbling with any and all ties, buttons, or clasps in his clothing that she could reach. "All settled."

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Ian!
[info]ringmybell
2013-04-01 12:17 am UTC (link)
Liz squirmed uncomfortably in her seat, lips twisted and ankles crossed. She had not been to one of these fancy events in a long, long time and the alarming number of celebrities, dignitaries, ministry officials, it was---overwhelming. There were cameras, their flashes going off rapidly with each swirl of the dance floor, and Liz could barely move to pick at her food in fear that they were going to photograph her and plaster her face all over those rags for--for no reason at all!

She was here for Katie, she's here for Katie, Katie, Katie. The mantra was in a continuous loop in her head, a constant reminder as to why she had accepted the invitation from the Ministry of Magic. Her daughter had survived the virus outbreak, thanks to the healers at St. Mungo's, the least she could do was show her support here in a dress that was on loan. Liz shut her eyes to try and force down her anxieties of being in this situation, as the large crowd wasn't helping, and she must have looked like a mad woman.

Air! Maybe she needed some air? Liz scooped up her ruffled skirt and moved as quickly as she could through the crowd. She'd go outside just for a moment, a moment was all she needed---there had been a quiet lobby where she'd checked her coat, she could rest on one of the unnecessarily lavish couches.

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[info]happydays
2013-04-01 12:52 am UTC (link)
Rian didn't know what he was doing here, except that he'd was here in place of his father a family duty that was met with uncomfortable dress robes and a mostly dateless evening. His position at the Ministry wouldn't hurt for showing up, either. He'd been blessedly okay with most of his friends being healthy and the ones who'd gotten sick were thankfully all better now. There was nothing like visiting your friend or (ex)girlfriend's kid in the hospital.

Only now that he was here, his quiet nature was at odds with his need to make a good show of a donation and family support, for those who had gotten better and also for those who hadn't. It wasn't difficult to find to find a drink and make his way back to his assigned seating. He'd wait through dinner and whatever speeches were to be heard before ducking out in time to escape dessert and any more awkward standing around

It wasn't that he was shy, he would just prefer to have the book he'd shrunk and tucked in his pocket that was subsequently stolen by his mother, who had come over to help him with his tie. She encouraged him to mingle and not just stick himself in a corner with a muggle paperback, well here he was only doing one of those two things. He was contemplating reading through the menu one last time when he heard his name called. Rian turned in that direction, giving a polite smile and a greeting, "Hello, hi."

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Scarrrlet
[info]kjbroadmoor
2013-04-01 02:17 am UTC (link)
The charity dinner turned out to be a bit more than Kendall was expecting, although he really shouldn't have been surprised with the turn out it had gathered. Being at an event that was held in honor of those who had passed from that nasty virus that was going around, he wasn't quite sure if it were appropriate that he was having such a great time. But then again, he found that he quite enjoyed Nona's company no matter the circumstances. He also found that it was quite difficult to pull his attention away from her, as lovely as she looked in her dress robes, even as she was waving her fingers as she walked off to go chat with some of her friends.

With his date disappeared into the crowd, Kendall moved through the chatting guest to see who else he knew in attendance. He didn't make it very far before he caught sight of the Wasps Keeper across the room. Kendall had been meaning to talk to her ever since Charlie had turned him down. He had know that was a long shot in the first place, and could completely understand his teammates choice.

Scarlett Rabnott was his first choice for keeper considering the players he had never played with before. Being as he didn't make a fool of himself when he spoke with Victoria just a few days before, he felt confident enough to approach her now, saving the step of sending her an Owl.

Kendall offered her a somewhat crooked smile as leaned onto the open space of bar next to her. "Mind if I steal a moment of your time?"

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[info]rabastans
2013-04-01 03:49 pm UTC (link)
Scarlett's lips pursed as she determined who it was that had sidled up beside her. Broadmoor, former Kestrel, current captain of the Wigtown Wanderers. It took her a moment to remember his first name and after that was settled in his head she took a quick glance over to ensure that he was indeed speaking to her. She'd heard all of these lines before. Scarlett had only allowed her publicist to accept this invitation for her because she had believed that this was a somewhat somber affair, and that blokes wouldn't be trying to hit on you while getting a beverage. She should have known better than to give male species the benefit of the doubt.

She blinked slowly at him, wondering if she should even bother with a response. He had been dating her friend Felicia Bulstrode last year and had ended things quite poorly; while her friend was good at taking things in stride, Scarlett held fast onto grudges and Kendall most certainly had earned one from her.

Letting out a breath, Scarlett looked back down at her drink and realized that she still had to manage at least another hour here at the event, and dealing with Broadmoor's advances might give her an excuse to leave early.

"Just a moment," she said before taking a drink.

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[info]kjbroadmoor
2013-04-04 12:41 pm UTC (link)
"That's all I need." Kendall grinned brightly when Scarlett agreed. When she first looked him up and down, he swore she was going to turn him down. That would have been quite a blow, not even having the chance to say his piece.

He took his drink and turned to face the keeper straight on as he thought over how he should continue. Only having a a small window of her attention, he had to get it right on the first shot. "I know this really isn't the place, but seeing you here I couldn't pass up the opportunity to speak to you when I had the chance. I always have preferred speaking in person to owl post."

Kendall took a sip of his drink to stem his rambling. "I would like to take you out to dinner some time, see what my chances are of convincing you keeping for the Wanderer's will be better than the Wasps."

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[info]rabastans
2013-04-10 12:43 am UTC (link)
Intriguing.

Scarlett listened to Kendall go on, conjuring up fifteen excuses to shoot down his request for a dance in less than thirteen seconds. Her eyebrows rose, actually taken off guard as he finished his thought. He was attempting to recruit her? Sweep her off her feet and onto the broomstick owned by the Wanderers? Well, then.

Her eyes narrowed, wondering if he was being serious. Scarlett had not kept it quiet that she wished to leave the Wasps, no matter the bad press. She had been traded from a team she loved to one with a captain that didn't care about anything but winning, and himself. She didn't appreciate being talked down to in public by Bagman, and she most certainly did not like making playoffs by the skin of her teeth.

Though, really, what did Broadmoor have to offer her? The Kestrels had collapsed and his lack of snitch catches were largely to blame. The seeker may have to say that they were not the most important part of the game, but it was a season based on points. When you were in control of 150 of them per match, things tended to lean towards you in the importance factor. And to ask her to move to the Wanderers of all teams?

"The Wanderers are horrible," Scarlett drawled, taking a seat on the stool behind her.

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Delilah
[info]brickhouse
2013-04-04 10:46 am UTC (link)
Rich rarely experienced the feeling of looking into a crowded room and only seeing one person. In fact, the arresting jerk and tunneling of vision was something he'd thought his mind only reserved for the late Deidra McKinnon. Tonight, however, he was being proven wrong because the moment that he spotted Delilah, no one else in the room existed to him.

Having no idea what had happened to her during the outbreak, Rich had been distraught throughout his delirium. He'd been told that even in his near-death state, he'd called out for her and asked for her, though he knew she wasn't even in the country. After the virus had passed and he'd been allowed an owl again, Rich had immediately tried to send her a message. All he knew was that she was out of the country and he had no idea how else to get in contact with her because she wasn't around in the journals. Then someone had told him that he ex had died from the virus and Rich was beside himself with worry.

Now though, here they both were and she was all Rich could see. He was given such pause that he couldn't move, he couldn't even speak. Did she even want him anymore? What had happened to her? Gods, if only he could make himself move.

Delilah suddenly glanced in his direction. Their gazes met and Rich was stating across the room, not paying much attention to where he was going or who he was squeezing or brushing past. Then he was standing in front of her her, his hands flexing at his sides for want to hold her, and all he could say was a quiet and somewhat relieved yet tight, "Hi."

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-05 01:23 am UTC (link)
Delilah was so done with being sick, she almost threw away the advert for the Charity Dinner at first sight. That stupid virus had stolen a month and a half of her life and she didn't want to spare it another thought. She would donate, of course, because at least she didn't die while in Istanbul, but going to a dinner? No that was to much.

Or so she thought. Just as she was about to toss the paper, she caught the list of names of those who passed. Delilah read it three times before she collapsed into the nearest chair. Her mouth dried as the realization that she had not read wrong dawned on her. She had always intended to go fix things with Scott. Although, they would never really be fixed but, Delilah had really cared for him, more than her actions ever showed and she hated how things were left. She had always hoped that one day, she could truly and sincerely apologize to him and make things right.

Now she would never have that opportunity. She supposed she really didn't deserve it either.

There was no way that Delilah could sit at home and not attend the event. She didn't say anything while she got ready, or during the dinner, in fact she had almost been in a stunned silence since finding out, only responding to her brothers' direct questions.

So when she caught Rich's eyes, Delilah wasn't sure what to do. She reached up to twirl the ends of her hair between her fingers before remembering that she had pinned it up for the evening. After an awkward moment of trying to figure out what to do with her hands, she settled for twisting her fingers together. She hadn't spoken to him since before she left for Istanbul. And then she got sick, and Nora confiscated her journal, which she hadn't yet bothered with. Then she was all about catching up with Charlie, and now there was the fact Scott was dead. She had been home for a couple weeks now, and she hadn't realized that she had forgotten Rich until he was standing in front of her.

What was she suppose to say to him? Considering the circumstances, it felt awkward for her to be with him. Even if he was her boyfriend. That she had forgotten about, again. "Hello," she offered quietly looking around the room. What was she doing with her life? She couldn't just keep leading these boys around like she did. Just look what happened to Scott. The virus certainly wasn't her fault but everything she put him through before that sure was. "I didn't realize you were coming-- I mean-- well--" She wrung her hands desperate for the words to come to her. "Hi."

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-05 03:57 pm UTC (link)
Rich canted his head and watched Delilah with knowing concern. She never responded to well to being emotionally put on the spot, which he didn't mean to be doing, but he realized that was exactly what his presence was doing to her. He didn't understand why him being there was making her squirm, but he saw that look in her eyes, the guilt-ridden one with hints of fear and attempted strength. Rich had seen that look before, and he hadn't enjoyed seeing her fret then, either.

"Let's get some air," he quietly suggested with a duck of his eyes and slight frown. For once, though, Rich didn't just hope Delilah would follow his lead or take it on her own. As Rich passed her, he looked up through his lashes to her face before he reached out and took her fingers for a tender squeeze. He held onto her hand and waited for her to move with him so they could go outside, not necessarily to talk, but to simply get away from everyone else.

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-09 12:32 am UTC (link)
Delilah let Rich lead her from the room. It was a good idea getting away from everyone else. She had already been feeling like she didn't belong before Rich showed up. She wasn't prepared for the evening as it was let alone talking Rich.

She followed behind mindlessly while her thoughts ran wild. She didn't understand why seeing him here was causing such a tightness in her chest, just that it wasn't suppose to be this way. Everything was suddenly complicated, or maybe it had always been that way and she just ignored it. Either way, it wasn't fair that she was leading him on like she was when she didn't even know what she wanted anymore. "Rich," she said it so quietly, Delilah wasn't certain he heard her, but the fact that she shopped following and let her hand fall from his would grab his attention if he didn't.

All she wanted to do was get back to dueling. Forget that she had ever been sick. Forget that Scott had died, that she cheated on him. That she technically cheated on Rich. Perhaps if she just went back to work with no distractions, she wouldn't feel so crazed. Maybe the guilt would ebb. "I don't think I can do this."

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-09 01:05 am UTC (link)
Rich had led them outdoors, out to patio area, where they could talk and not have eyes and ears on them because he'd a feeling that regardless of how elated he was to see Delilah, she was going to take the opportunity push him away like she'd done so many times before. He wasn't even shocked when she let go of his hand. Turning at the hushed sound of his name, Rich tried to keep his face straight because he didn't want to lay a guilt trip on her, but it was impossible to not feel the tiniest bit desperate. They hadn't seen each other in so long and he wanted -- no, needed to know she was okay and that they were okay.

Breath catching and features wincing, Rich ducked his face momentarily because he had to get a grip or he was literally going to make Delilah run with everything he was dying to say to her. "Delilah," Rich began, his voice as tight as his chest felt. He lifted his hands to her in hopes that she would take them when he said. "You have no idea how much I don't care about anything else, right now -- about how long we were apart or what happened before now or anything that happened during the outbreak. I don't care." He paused so swallow roughly. "I didn't bring you out here to talk, all right? I brought you out here so you don't have to worry about someone listening. I brought you out here because it's hard for me to breathe around you and honestly, I was just hoping you'd let me hold you awhile."

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-09 01:45 am UTC (link)
Delilah stared at Rich's hands as he spoke, keeping hers at her side, shaking her head slightly. He was being so kind, incredibly sappy, but still kind. Rich always was no matter what she did. Some days it made her feel like the luckiest girl in the world, other days it made her skin crawl just a bit. Like she wasn't doing enough to deserve it.

They were far from being on equal footing when it came to emotional investments.

She forced herself to look up to Rich, a mistake in retrospect, his face always having a talent for distracting her. Also knowing that she was going to make it look even sadder than it already was just made things difficult. "I don't think that is a good idea."

She forced the words out with some difficulty. Unable to look at Rich, Delilah's eyes drifted down to her shoes. "Everything is so," her hand fluttered as she searched for a word, "This is not how things should be. Somehow I got to the point where I don't feel like I'm in control anymore. That if things keep like they are now, I am going to wake up one day and not know who I am anymore."

Delilah hadn't realized how true the words were until she had spoken them. And now that they were there hanging between the two of them, she needed to act on them. "You are so sweet to me, and have never judged me, but I judge me."

She wiped at the tears welling in her eyes. "I am so sorry, but I can't-- this-- we--- How can this work if I don't even know who I am anymore?"

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-09 02:27 am UTC (link)
Rich shook his head and took a small step forward, not meaning to encroach, but needing to get close enough that she couldn't simply disapparate without taking him along. "But the things you're talking about are the ones that don't matter -- not now, not after everything that's happened," Rich tried to reason, speaking with his hands and grasping at the air. He sighed, not sure if what he'd said even made sense.

"Delilah, I'm not trying to make you do anything. I don't want to make you do anything. I want you to decide to do something because it's what you want," he said it all in such a rush that he had to pause to think back over the words. He ran his lips together and let his hands droop because she was crying and all he wanted was to hold her, let her know it was okay to feel out of place after being away for so long.

Pulling out his wand, Rich made a flick with his wrist and summoned a cloth napkin from inside that he caught and held out her so she could dry her face. Every joint and bone was aching as he looked at her. Seeing Delilah this upset just made him sick.

"Relationships work because of what happens when you're apart, not because of what happens when you're together," Rich explained quietly. "You need space and I get that, but Delilah, that doesn't mean if I give you space that I don't want you around. If anything, I'm going to be more certain than ever of how I feel about you by letting you go."

"I don't -- I don't worry about you not coming back anymore," he stammered. "That's not the point of how much I care about you. Delilah, my feelings do not hinge on you wanting me. They hinge on you being happy. So, please, do what makes you happy. I can't stand not seeing you happy."

His mouth clamped shut after that. Rich couldn't explain why Delilah made him ramble like he did, but it had to count for something, right?

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[info]takeyoudown
2013-04-09 06:12 pm UTC (link)
Delilah tensed up as Rich took another step closer to her. He wasn't listening! The things she was talking about did matter, especially now. This wasn't about them, it was about her and how she felt about herself. She had no idea how to explain other than the words she had just used.

"Your feelings shouldn't hinge on me at all. That-- that will just lead to heart break. I'm not happy Rich, and that has nothing to do with you. You didn't cause it, you can't make it better. I thought you could, I tried but this is not me."

She bit her lip looking away from Rich. Her words felt so cliche, but it was true. It would be cruel for her to let this go on, it would be much worse down the road. "I am so very sorry, but I think it would be best if I go."

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[info]brickhouse
2013-04-09 09:40 pm UTC (link)
Rich let out a slow, soft breath that wasn't quite a sigh. He knew he wasn't going to be able to get through to her, not tonight when she was in this state of mind. Maybe he'd get a chance again to try to do right by her, and maybe he wouldn't, but he couldn't let her go without getting a few words in for her to think about.

"If you're going to go, you're going to go. I won't try to stop you because you are your own person and no one should be making those decisions but you," Rich began quietly. He watched her face, though he eyes were downcast. "Honestly, I think you would be better off if you didn't go at this alone. I think you should have someone there to support you -- not necessarily to always say 'it's okay' but to be there so you're never feel alone no matter the choices you make."

Then Rich did sigh before cautiously reaching out to take one of her hands and hold it between his. "You're brilliant, Delilah. You're brilliant and people want things from you for that reason." He pressed his lips together and shrugged slightly. "I think you're upset because you're expecting me to be as demanding as the rest," he frowned, "but I'm not like that, Delilah. I'm not going to demand anything from you. I'm going to hope and I'm going wait, and maybe that's what threw you off course -- the patience."

Giving her fingers a squeeze, Rich tried to duck and twist to get a look at her eyes when he whispered, "Maybe one day, you'll see that it's not such a bad thing to have your world change."

Letting go and stepping back, Rich breathed tightly because it really did hurt to have her saying she wanted to leave and that she didn't want him, regardless of whose fault it was. She wasn't going to come to him for comfort anymore and he kind of wanted to cry.

"Take care and don't be so hard on yourself," Rich told her as he shoved his hands in his pockets and started to turn. He didn't want her to have to feel like she was leaving him stranded. "You're only human, you know?" he finished with a weak smile before starting to walk, each step feeling like he might crumple, but willing himself not to look back. She didn't need to see how wounded he was. That just wouldn't be fair.

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