Sam Winchester (wayward_son) wrote,
@ 2011-05-14 21:42:00

Another Night, Another Bottle
Sam Winchester knows, deep down, that he's better than this, better than letting himself drown in self-pity and a cheap bottle of whiskey, but he doesn't care right now. He doesn't care that his brother, Dean, would want him to find a way to move on with his life and get out from under the cloud hanging over him, but Sam doesn't care about that, either.

Dean is dead, and much of Sam's purpose in life went with him. Dean was the one who'd first gotten Sam into hunting, into this life of moving from place to place and helping where they could. He'd been happy in law school, leaving this all behind, before Dean came asking for his help. Every time Sam needed his brother, Dean was there to help, there to encourage him.

But when Dean needed him, Sam couldn't come through for his brother.

He takes another drink, letting the alcohol burn as it runs down his throat. The drinking dulls the pain somewhat, keeping his guilt from eating him alive completely...

...at least, until the whiskey runs out again.

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	wayward_son 2011-05-15 10:05 pm UTC (link)
	"You're right." he says, looking down at her. "Can't love life too much. Everyone dies." he says, starting to wash his hair. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	"Even demons," Ruby said, sighing at the feel of his hands in her hair. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 10:17 pm UTC (link)
	"You ever wonder what it'll be like when you die?" he asks, massaging her scalp. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	"Sometimes," she said. "I don't know what happens when demons die. Obviously heaven's not in the picture for me... but I don't know if I'd just go back to hell, as I haven't run into any of the demons I've killed. Maybe I'll just cease to exist." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	"Does that scare you?" he asks. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 10:39 pm UTC (link)
	There was a long pause. "It terrifies me." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	Sam tilts Ruby's face up to look at him. "You're not going anywhere. Just so you know." he says, kissing her again. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 10:48 pm UTC (link)
	"A lot of people you know would say otherwise, Sam." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 11:05 pm UTC (link)
	"They're not here. It's just us." Sam whispers, kissing her neck. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 11:15 pm UTC (link)
	She sighed. "Yes...yes it is." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 11:18 pm UTC (link)
	And they spend a bit more time in the shower than they meant to, as Sam tells himself that /this/ is the last time. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 11:22 pm UTC (link)
	When they were done, Ruby stepped out of the shower, wrapping herself in a towel. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 11:38 pm UTC (link)
	Sam gets out as well, wrapping himself in a towel and drying off, before heading back into the main area of the room. He finds some of his clothes that are still clean, a pair of blue jeans and a black shirt, and puts them on, along with socks and boots. "I'll get the food and come back...and then, I guess we'll figure out what needs to happen next." Sam says. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-15 11:46 pm UTC (link)
	"You leave me, I'll find you," Ruby said. "Don't think because we had some great sex that I'll let you go easy." She smirked a little. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-15 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	Sam returns the smirk as he walks out the door. "If I leave, how will you get more of it?" he says, the door closes behind him. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 12:20 am UTC (link)
	"This is true," she as she went to get dressed. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 12:53 am UTC (link)
	A little while later, Sam returns with a large pizza and a huge order of french fries with water and soda for the two of them. "Food is here!" Sam calls out. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:01 am UTC (link)
	"Excellent," she said, grinning. "I'm starving." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:03 am UTC (link)
	"Have at it, Demon Girl." Sam says, going for a a slice of pepperoni pizza. Once they're far enough into their meal, Sam looks at Ruby. "How do I kill Lilith?" he asks. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:13 am UTC (link)
	Ruby took another bite of her pizza before looking up at him. "It's not going to be easy, Sam," she said. "You can't just walk in there with my knife or the Colt and expect to kill her outright." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:16 am UTC (link)
	"What about both?" he asks. "Or what if the two of us do it together?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:29 am UTC (link)
	"I had been wanting to talk to you about that, Sam," she said. "You have the power to kill Lilith. You've had it all along...you just need to harness it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:34 am UTC (link)
	/That/ gets Sam's attention. "Ruby, what do you mean? What are you talking about?" he asks, certain that he'd be aware of it if he had power to kill Lilith. Hell, if he could have, he'd have killed her the day Dean died. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	witchesrwhores 2011-05-16 01:36 am UTC (link)
	"Your psychic abilities...you thought you lost them when you and Dean defeated Yellow Eyes, right?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	wayward_son 2011-05-16 01:44 am UTC (link)
	"Yeah, those are gone. Have been for awhile. If I still had them, I'd have used them by now." Sam says. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)