From: imperfectly	Date: December 18th, 2010 06:00 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"That sounds like a lot of fun, I love The Grinch" Sera laughed. "We'll probably do a lot of the same stuff but I'm still not sure how much time my parents are going to have off. My mom usually takes a sort vacation but with my dad we never know since he's a cop and for some reason muggles seem to act especially stupid over the holidays." Sera grinned, taking another sip of cider.

Sera had forgot all about France, she loved France in the winter especially at night. The city where her grandparents lived was always so lit up and beautiful this time of year. "Yeah, my mom and I usually go for a day or two between Christmas and New Years, so I assume we still are this year. We usually only don't go if my grandparents come here to visit but that doesn't happen very often." Sera continued on, smiling back at Jenny. She could tell Jenny was more relaxed, which made talking to her a whole lot easier.

Part of her wished the kiss had never happened.

	From: 867_5309	Date: December 19th, 2010 12:28 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Oh, don't even tell me about muggles acting stupid over the holidays. You should see my dad after a couple of Irish coffees," Jenny replied, grinning back at her. "Actually, on second thought, no one else needs to see that. I think I'll take that image to the grave."

"That must be nice though, to get to visit somewhere amazing like that? It's cool that your mom lives here, but she can visit a place like that and it's still home. I think the farthest I've ever been was to Florida once. We went for vacation when we were really small.. and I guess technically speaking, I traveled wherever our birth mom went before she had us. I don't even know where she was from. Maybe I went to amazing places in utero," she joked, rolling her eyes. "Seriously though, you'll take pictures or something, right? With the Eiffel tower maybe? Or is that too touristy?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: December 21st, 2010 09:43 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Oh it is, really nice." Sera assured her friend. "It's so beautiful and different from here, it's like being in a whole different world. I remember the first few times I went, when I was actually old enough to appreciate it all, it was almost surreal." Sera rambled on for a minute, before pausing. Sera just listened as Jenny talked about her birth mother, she always wondered what it must be like for Jenny, to not know where she really came from, who she could be related to.

"I'll take lots of pictures." Sera replied, smiling big at Jenny, "It's not that touristy, but it will be busy this time of year, hard to get a good shot probably with all the tourists walking every which way, but I'll try to get a good one, for you." Sera smiled again.

"I can show you them all when we get back from school and tell you all about it."

	From: 867_5309	Date: December 26th, 2010 03:59 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Sounds like a plan to me," Jenny replied, grinning. "I just wish I had something neat I could take pictures of for you, but unless you want a picture of the suburbs, I think you're out of luck," she joked.

"Do you think you'll visit anybody over break?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: December 27th, 2010 12:23 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

Sera giggled in response, she could never picture growing up in the suburbs. Not that it was a bad place, she was sure but she was used to having a fair amount of space.

"I don't know yet for sure. Maybe a couple of us could have a girls night? Or I could come visit you if you want?"

"Check out the suburbs for myself?" Sera joked back.

	From: 867_5309	Date: December 27th, 2010 01:45 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"If you want the grand tour, I can give you it, though it's nothing special," Jenny replied, grinning. "You know you're welcome to come out whenever. I think my mom would love it, she's always going on about how no one ever drops in over Christmas.."

	From: imperfectly	Date: December 27th, 2010 02:09 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"I would love to." Sera responded, piping up a little in her chair and leaning over closer to Jenny. "Maybe right when I get back, that way I can bring the pictures and stuff." Sera continued.

"Do you think it would be okay if I stayed for the night? I can sleep on the floor if you think it'd be too weird, after what happened." Sera tried to stop herself but the words just came out, bringing up the summer was the last thing she wanted to do. But she was a little curious to hear the answer none-the-less.

	From: 867_5309	Date: December 27th, 2010 03:33 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

When Sera mentioned what happened, Jenny felt her cheeks flushing as she gave a nonchalant little shrug. "Whatever, you can sleep whereever. We have a guest room, if you.. feel like, uncomfy. But our bunks are doubles.. so, whatever, right?" Jenny replied, rambling a bit, and quickly trailing off.

"I don't care either way."

	From: imperfectly	Date: December 28th, 2010 12:28 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Re: Sera/Jenny

Sera didn't really know what to think of Jenny's response but noticing that flush of pink that passed over Jenny's checks, she couldn't help but feel bad. She didn't mean to make her uncomfortable, again.

"Sorry." Sera replied, looking sincerely over towards Jenny, her eyes glued on the blonde. "You sure you don't care."

	From: 867_5309	Date: December 29th, 2010 12:55 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"I really don't care," Jenny replied quickly, shaking her head. "I'm good, honest. I'm not going to be all weird about this, it just.. happened, and that's fine. I was just being a weirdo. I don't even know why. But I'm fine, really, I am."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 8th, 2011 05:29 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

Sera paused, held her breathe for a second, exhaled and went for it.

She leaned forward, making sure only Jenny could hear, her chair screeched on the hard floor as she scooted her chair over a little closer. This was private. "Hey since we're kind of on the topic." And if you're really okay with it, Sera couldn't help but wonder. "Do you mind if I ask you something?"

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 8th, 2011 05:33 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

Jenny blinked a little, but leaned in as well, keeping her voice just as low and conspiratorial. "No? I mean, I guess not. Why, what is it?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 8th, 2011 06:54 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"It just the day we kissed, I felt right and it didn't seem like it was just me?"

"You felt it a little too? That's why you got so freaked out?" Sera posed as a question, her head was down she was almost too scared to hear the answer, scared she'd been too forward. Shit this was a bad idea

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 8th, 2011 07:05 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

Jenny tried desperately to keep her face from betraying any reaction to the brunette's words. It was hard though, her stomach doing a little flip, a clench of guilt passing over her. All of this time she'd been acting so weird about it, and never explaining herself. It was immature, and she felt bad. She supposed it was time to come clean.

"I felt plenty," Jenny replied, only adverting her eyes slightly. "I just.. I mean, I was.. I guess I'm okay with it. I've-- I've kissed other girls.. and stuff. Before.. well, girl, just one girl. A few times. But she's.. she's not into me like that. Which is okay, because I don't know if I'm into her.. like that," she continued, trailing off slightly.

It always felt good with Quinn, but they were so different. They only wanted one thing from each other, and Jenny could learn from her. She felt so much more vulnerable with Sera, and like she had so much more to lose. She was too different from Quinn. They weren't comparable, and yet they had to be. How could she ever explain?

"She's a senior anyway," she said finally, unsure what else to say next. It was getting awkward again, but she wanted it out there. "I feel a lot, when I'm.. around you. But we're friends first, aren't we? I don't want to lose my friend. Does that make sense?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 8th, 2011 07:40 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"A Senior really?" Sera questioned, a little hurt although trying not to let it be heard in her tone. "Do I, Uh know her?" She asked again, just trying to process what Jenny has just confessed to. She was mad sure, but Jenny was just being honest and she couldn't ignore that fact. She also couldn't ignore the fact that Jenny said she liked her, maybe not in those exact words, but they were close. She had worried about the friendship thing too, a lot actually. She knew exactly what Jenny was trying to say.

"We are definitely friends first." She smiled, finally forcing herself to really look at Jenny and actually making eye contact for the first time in a few minutes. "And I don't wanna lose you either. Like ever." She smiled again but just left it at that.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 8th, 2011 10:29 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Probably not. She's in Lalaurie," Jenny replied quietly, taking just a moment to bite at her lower lip. This was the first time she had spoken to Quinn about anyway, really; they had always operated on a sort of silent basis. She didn't talk much with Quinn, let alone about her. "Her name is Quinn. She's really.. she's quite nice, actually.." Jenny murmured, glancing up to meet Sera's eyes, offering a weak smile in return.

"Me either. It's something I just.. worry about.. if anything didn't go right, I mean.. you're amazing, you are, but I'm.. you don't have to deal with the kind of stuff I'm going through. All right? It's just kind of not a good time."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 8th, 2011 11:20 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Oh I think I know who you mean." I didn't know she was-- "Like I've seen her around and stuff." Sera continued, glancing around the room briefly, not that she wanted to the girl though.

She shifted her attention back to Jenny. For once she didn't really know what to say. She knew Jenny was scared and confused. "You're right, I'm sorry, I don't want my feelings for you to hurt our friendship. I can live with just being your friend" Sera tried to keep a smile.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 8th, 2011 11:32 pm (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

Jenny looked fairly relieved, reaching across the table a little, hand offered to Sera. "I'm glad you understand-- I felt so weird, because I had all these like.. nightmare scenarios in my head, that you wouldn't wanna be my friend anymore, or you'd think I was like.. homophobic or something.. so I just like, avoided everything, and then that just messed up everything so much worse," Jenny explained, all in what seemed like a single breath.

"I'm sorry," she added finally, quieting.

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 02:03 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"You didn't mess anything up. I understand completely." Sera offered back. "I was worried too, worried I'd freak you out too much and you'd hate me or something."

"So don't be sorry." She reached over under the table where no one would see and held Jenny's hand in her own for just a moment. "We're fine really, you're like my best friend." Sera was upset, but she couldn't let it show too much in front of Jenny.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 02:09 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

Jenny squeezed Sera's hand in return, smiling slightly. There was a bit of a sadness to her expression, but the relief was clear. It felt like the air was finally free of tension compared to before.

"I shouldn't have reacted like that, I just.. didn't think. I should have explained myself from the start, but then things just.. didn't work that way. So I am sorry. You're like my best friend, too."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 02:19 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Good." Sera smiled up at Jenny. "I wouldn't want it any other way." She laughed casually. Things were good, not awkward, not exactly what she wanted either but she was content.

"And don't worry about any of that stuff you told me either. You're secret--the whole Quinn thing is safe with me. You can talk to me about anything anytime, I mean that." Sera couldn't help but feel sad for Jenny, she knew what she was dealing with wasn't easy.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 02:44 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Thanks," Jenny replied softly, reaching over to give her friend's hand another little squeeze. "I don't think you have much to worry about. I.. haven't hung out with her in a while. Not since that party Charlie had.. I mean, not that it matters. It's not like we're.. I dunno, dating or anything. We never were," she added, trailing off.

It was probably best to leave it at that. It was probably best not to mention how much she had thought about how things would have been if they had dated. She had known from the start, she wouldn't be anything but a friend with benefits for Quinn, but sometimes her heart had wandered. And she was a really good kisser.

"I appreciate all of this, Sera, seriously.. I know it's all kind of crazy. See what I meant when I said you didn't want to get in with me? Trainwreck," she half-joked.

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 03:04 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Did you ever want it to be more than that?" Sera asked before realizing maybe it was none of her business and she wasn't even really sure if she wanted to hear the answer. In fact she was pretty sure she didn't but she asked so it was too late to really think about all that now. "I mean if you don't mind me asking?" It hurt a little to know that maybe Jenny had feelings for another girl, but at least she hadn't been completely wrong about her. Maybe her gaydar wasn't quite as bad as she thought?

Sera let her hand squeeze back on Jenny's. "It's no problem really, I'm glad I could help out."

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 03:08 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

Jenny bit instinctively onto her lower lip for a moment, unable to help the busted look on her face. "Maybe a little," she admitted slowly. "But it's not going to happen, trust me. She's.. I just don't think it's going to happen. I knew what I was getting into, I'm not.. overly attached," she continued, once again trailing off.

"She's a really good kisser? Like, really good?" she offered, hoping to lighten the mood a little. "But she isn't into cuddling or any of that fun stuff.. well, sometimes she would let me hold her hand.. but I want all of that, if I want to really be with somebody. I want the whole thing. I want cuteness, closeness, just.. stupid, loving affection. I want that."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 04:23 am (UTC)		(Link)
	Sera/Jenny

"Maybe she'll come around and want something more. You never know." Sera offered just trying to help. She really just wanted Jenny to be happy, but regardless of what she said she didn't want to see her end up with that Senior girl. Hearing Jenny talk about kissing her, only made matters worse, but Sera didn't let it slip.

"No cuddling really, that's like one of my favorite things to do." Sera laughed, "That's the important, cute stuff? I don't think I could be with someone who wasn't into all that." She continued still giggling.