From: imperfectly	Date: January 8th, 2011 09:52 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Sera nodded, "I don't think that's a stupid resolution at all. That's something special, I think so anyway." Trying to hold her emotions Sera just smiled and leaned back beside Jenny. Her hand slipped across the top of Jenny's as she did, she just looked up at the ceiling but left her hand where it lay.

"Do you wanna know what my New Years Resolution is?" Sera giggled, "I stole the idea from Meka actually."

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 8th, 2011 10:19 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny turned a bit, smirking some at the brunette. "Sure, tell me?" she offered. The room was only lit up by the lamp on Sera's desk, but it was nice. It was a relaxing scene, so different from the party they had just been to. It was nice to have somewhere to relax when it was all over.

"Are you two planning on getting rich husbands in the next year or so? Because if so, I want a cut."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 8th, 2011 11:40 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"No it's nothing that crazy. It's to try new things." Sera laughed. "Maybe that means I'll finally become a cheerleader or do something else crazy." Sera added with a giggle, sticking her tongue out and nudging Jenny a little. She leaned back more to get comfy and looked at her watch once again.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 02:13 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Try new things? I could use some of that," Jenny agreed, grinning a little. She lifted her hand, covering her mouth as she yawned a little as Sera checked the time. "Will you really consider it? I bet you'd be good at it. And I could teach you, I know Ella would help. I thought I'd never be able to do it when I first started.. I only did because El did, and I wanted to feel included, you know? But now it's really fun. And everyone on the team is really great."

Turning over on her side, Jenny faced Sera, propping herself up on her arm as she looked at the brunette. "And the uniforms? Surprisingly comfy. No one even really tries to look up them, except a couple of guys from the Lalaurie team.."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 02:44 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I'll definitely consider it." Sera assured her. "Do you think they'd even let me join in the middle of the season though?" Sera asked, still trying to imagine herself as a cheerleader.

"I heard the Sonnier Cheerleading team is kind of terrible, maybe I should get you and Ella to help me so I can steal some moves and help them out." Sera laughed. Joking aside though she believed Jenny, it did look pretty fun and she supposed the uniforms didn't seem to bad either.

"5 minutes ti New Years." Sera announced still laying on her back but looking over towards Jenny who was now laying towards her. She knew Jenny wouldn't bee able to stay much longer if she wanted to get in without her parents noticing.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 02:51 am (UTC)		(Link)

"This is why you should be in Beauregard. Not only are we awesome, but I think Vinnie would definitely let you join no matter what time of year.. but I don't know about the Sonnier captain. It couldn't hurt to ask, right?" Jenny replied. "Trying new things and all, just go for it! And I might let you steal a couple moves, but nothing too much.. we gotta have our trade secrets. Especially if we wanna take the cup home this year," she added, grinning.

When Sera announced five minutes until midnight, Jenny flopped down, laying onto her back as well now, eyes staring up at the ceiling. "Five minutes until the year ends. I can't help but feel like we're not using our time wisely. What amazing things can you fit into five minutes though, really?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 03:22 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I still don't know yet. I'll think about it and maybe ask the Captain a few questions before I make my decision." Sera replied, grinning back at Jenny.

"I know what you mean, we have to do something to really end 2010 with a bang, something were going to remember." Sera stopped to think, but really what was there that they could fit into five minutes?

"You have any ideas?" Sera asked, giggling. "We could always make out or something?" She offered jokingly.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 03:27 am (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny laughed, turning her head to look at her friend, sticking her tongue out. "You really are a total pervert!" she replied, giving the brunette a playful little prod in the upper arm. "People think you're this little prude, and you're totally just stringing them along.. that's twice you've come onto me in ten minutes," the blonde teased.

"In all seriousness though, I've never actually had a New Years kiss.. I mean like, a real one. Well, with Charlie once, but he was really drunk, and he tasted like old beer.. and then we had to sleep on the couch at the party. It was nasty as hell."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 04:02 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I am not." Sera laughed giving Jenny a gentle nudge in return. "I like to surprise people though" She added, finding it easier to joke around with Jenny and say things she wouldn't normally say to other people.

"I've never had one either." Sera confessed, a little grossed out by the thought of Jenny kissing Charlie at all and almost equally how awful a sloppy beer-flavored kiss must have been. She knew if she had the chance she could surely give Jenny a better New Years kiss than that to remember. There was no question in her mind.

The only problem was she agreed they should just be friends. She couldn't just lean over and kiss her (again), Could she?

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 04:08 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Never ever? Not even a bad one?" Jenny replied, perking up a little, head turning to look more seriously in Sera's direction. She smiled a little, lips pursing for just a moment, as she reached into the pocket of her jeans. She pulled out her own cell phone, looking at the screen, before turning it to Sera.

"Two minutes."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 04:33 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Nope never." Sera confessed, a little embarrassed. "Not even a bad one."

When Jenny announced the two minutes, Sera couldn't help but get a little nervous. Maybe it was just the excitement of New Years or maybe she'd actually get a second chance to kiss her.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 04:55 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Really? That sucks," Jenny replied, glancing at the other girl again, before returning her eyes to the ceiling. She didn't want to look at her friend, feeling a little flutter in her stomach every time that she did. Maybe it was just New Years jitters. She always felt a little strange as midnight, maybe this was all it was..

But she doubted it.

There was silence between them, though it wasn't uncomfortable. Jenny forgot to check her phone again, and before she realized it, there was the distant sound of explosions outside. Muggles with fireworks, maybe even guns. Despite whatever laws may have forbade against it, Jenny knew that muggles loved to fire their guns on New Years. She could hear the noises clearly, as far away as they felt. "Houses must be pretty far apart out here, huh?" she asked, propping herself up onto her elbow again.

She looked seriously as Sera, swallowing hard, and resisting the urge to bite at her lower lip again.

"Happy new year," she murmured, scooting a little closer, grabbing Sera's hand. "I'm glad we're here."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 05:14 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Yeah they are." Sera added realizing what that sounds were outside at that it had to be midnight. "We can usually hear the neighbors fireworks and stuff but we can't usually see much. You can check out the window if you wanna have a look though?" Sera offered, noticing the look Jenny was suddenly giving her. "Or We could just stay right here." She scooted in towards Jenny, narrowing the space between them.

"I'm glad too." Sera said quietly in almost a whisper. With her hand in Jenny's palm she reached her other hand to Jenny's cheek, closed her eyes and softly kissed her. She could literally feel he heart start to beat faster.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 05:27 am (UTC)		(Link)

Despite everything telling her that this had the potential to be a very bad idea, Jenny couldn't bring herself to offer any resistance. There was no sense in trying to deny the fact that they couldn't go back to just friends as if the summer had never happened. For every heavy beat of Sera's heart, Jenny's offered one of the same. She felt like her heart might crawl up her throat, as her lips met Sera's.

It had been ages since she had kissed anyone. Kissed a girl, especially. It was nice; soft and careful. Unlike kissing most boys. Pulling back just slightly, Jenny opened her eyes to look at Sera, fixing her with a serious gaze. "I was an asshole to you," the blonde murmured softly. "I won't be like I was in the summer. I'd.. I couldn't do that to you again," she continued. Leaning in, she kissed Sera again, twining their fingers together with the hands that were touching.

"I never meant to hurt you like that," she whispered. "Never again. Life is too short right?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 9th, 2011 09:54 pm (UTC)		(Link)

In the moment, Sera had forgotten all about the summer and everything that had followed. When her lips touched the blonds that had been the last thing on her mind but now that Jenny brought it up she couldn't help but think about it. She tried to push it to the back of her mind, Jenny's words reassuring her that this time I'd be different.

For once Sera was at a loss for words, her mind unable to completely process what Jenny was saying. Even if it was exactly what she wanted to hear, she had her doubts. Her thoughts relaxed when Jenny leaned in for a second kiss.

"It's Okay." Sera spoke softly into Jenny's ear. "I know you never meant to hurt me." She placed a light kiss on Jenny's neck just below her ear.

Maybe this time it would be different?

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 9th, 2011 10:15 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Good," Jenny replied quietly, unable to help but shiver slightly as Sera's lips touched her neck. The noise outside was starting to die down as the minutes past midnight ticked by, and the house was otherwise silent. Besides the sound of their breathing, anyway.

"I don't know how to make it up to you, I was.. I wanted to tell you on Christmas. But I couldn't get away from my mom, she was like everywhere. I didn't think we were even going to be able to get out tonight," she murmured, teeth pulling at her lip as she paused. "I'm glad though. I needed to make it right, I'm.. going to be myself for the new year. All of me."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 10th, 2011 12:00 am (UTC)		(Link)

Sera noticed the silence too, with just the faint noise of the last of the fireworks going off at a distance. She liked the quiet it made every breath and every word radiate through her. All the waiting, awkwardness and avoiding suddenly seemed all worthwhile.

"I would have came to see you." Sera offered back, listening intently. Even if she was actually kind of glad it happened the way it did. "What made you change you mind?" Sera questioned softly, tickling Jenny's hand with her thumb as there fingers still remained intertwined

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 10th, 2011 12:10 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I just.. I've been thinking a lot lately," Jenny mused, smiling some as Sera tickled her hand. She gave the brunette's hand a squeeze in response, letting her head rest one her arm as she looked over at her friend. "I haven't been able to do much else except think.. strict bed rest and all. And I just think I'm starting to realize that shit is crazy right now.. at school, especially. And I'm like.. life is short. It's too short to spend it worrying what other people think about you."

Pausing for a moment, she adverted her eyes to the ceiling again, smiling faintly. "I've been screaming off a pedestal for years about bisexual rights, and with the way teenagers minds work, I'm sure everyone already thinks we're together.. so why not? I've been spending all this time thinking about what people would say, and how my life was supposed to be, but my life is what I make it. I could have another seizure tomorrow, Ella might not be there, I might hit my head, anything could happen.. I could just go down and drop dead. I don't want to risk dying unhappy. I want to die following what I feel. I've been thinking a lot about mortality. That makes sense, doesn't it?"

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 10th, 2011 02:59 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Yeah that makes perfect sense." Sera smiled, trying not to think about Jenny dying. She barely had her, the last thing she wanted to think about was losing her. "But don't say stuff like that." Sera laughed, nudging Jenny she pouted slightly. "You're making me worry."

Maybe she'd get Ella to teach her a few pointers in case Jenny ever had another seizure when they were a lone. It couldn't hurt, especially after feeling so helpless at the Snowflake Ball.

Sera still wasn't actually sure where her and Jenny stood, Did everyone already assume they were together? and did that mean they were now? Sera quietly wondered, too scared to ask aloud, and more so to hear the answer.

"I wish you didn't have to leave tonight." Sera smiled rolling over to her stomach. With her chin rested on her palms she attempted an adorably sad face directed at Jenny.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 10th, 2011 03:07 am (UTC)		(Link)

"Sorry," Jenny replied, smiling weakly. "I've got a case of the worst possible scenario running through my head. You can go ahead and blame my mum.. she's been worrying about things that I never even would have thought of without her rambling at me," she explained. She watched Sera turn over, smiling a little more genuinely at her, and reaching over to brush a hand against her cheek.

"I know, but I don't know if I can deal with her lecture if she catches me out. I should be good for another hour or so though.. I mean, if you wanna.. hang out," the blonde offered, letting her thumb trace absently over the other girl's lips. "Or whatever.."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 10th, 2011 08:53 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Sera definitely wanted Jenny to stay, there was no question but she didn't want her to get in trouble either so she was just going to make the best of the time they had. She kissed Jenny's thumb as it passed over her mouth. "And you call me the pervent." Sera joked, "What exactly do you mean..whatever?"

Waiting for a reply and still on her stomach Sera slowly edged herself closer to Jenny.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 10th, 2011 09:49 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny smiled slowly, her teeth pulling at her lower lip momentarily, as if in a thought. "I dunno. Just whatever," she replied, smirking and letting her thumb press over the brunette's lips again. "I wasn't even being dirty, so you are a perv," she added, her stomach tightening a little as Sera edged closer. Waiting only a second, Jenny did the same, closing the remainder of the distance between them, idly grazing her thumb again.

"I just meant whatever you wanna do."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 11th, 2011 01:18 am (UTC)		(Link)

When Jenny moved towards her, Sera didn't bother to reply, she just smiled and adjusted herself along side Jenny. She could feel the warmth of Jenny's body along her side, and she leaned into towards her.

"Whatever I wanna do huh?" She questioned. She placed a hand gently on Jenny's neck and leaned in for another kiss. This time more intense, sucking lightly on Jenny's bottom lip. Her fingers tickling lightly on Jenny's neck and down her shoulder.

	From: 867_5309	Date: January 11th, 2011 01:52 am (UTC)		(Link)

Jenny closed her eyes quickly as Sera kissed her, shivering a little against the feeling of Sera's teeth grazing her lip. It almost made her whimper. She was glad, at least, they were home alone. "I hope your sister doesn't bring her girlfriend home," the blonde murmured as she pulled back some, looking at Sera with a serious expression that still held a hint of mischief.

When the fingers tickled over her shoulders, just past her collarbone, she couldn't be silent a moment longer, letting out a little satisfied groan. "Stop that, you're teasing," she muttered, reaching over and beginning to pull off the scarf the brunette had been wearing. "And you overdress."

	From: imperfectly	Date: January 11th, 2011 02:40 am (UTC)		(Link)

"I don't think she'll be home for a while." Sera assured her. "If she comes home at all." Sera smirked at the look on Jenny's face. She was done talking about Tatum.

She closed her eyes and sighed lightly as the tiny noise escaped Jenny. It had to be one of the hottest things she ever heard. "Stop what?" Sera giggled, running her fingers down Jenny's arm and back up. She leaned her head forward to help Jenny remove her scarf.

She sat up and removed her sweater, leaving just the tank top she wore underneath. "It that better?"