Well, I've been doing okay lately. A couple things have come up, not sure their public-entry friendly, but they've definitely got me thinking and wondering about things in my life.

I'd rather not go into all that right now. I've been listening to The Romantic Tragedy's EP for like 2 weeks now, it's so amazing and it always makes me smile. I love it so much! I got another Xbox on Friday I think it was and I've been playing a bunch of CoD4 and GTA4 with ltdan. We definitely have a lot with it, I think it's a lot of fun. I'm glad I got a real copy of GTA, it's a lot of fun screwing up the city with your best friend haha. I finally unlocked Martydom and the M4 Carbine yesterday, so I'm happy about that.

I finished up most of Chapter 5 in my CCNA book yesterday. I just need to finish the review questions tonight before our little study/review session. Then hopefully I can get some COD4 in. I'm addicted to that game, it's terrible.

Chris is getting his XDM today, I can't wait to see it. I want one myself. I'll probably get an another AR15 though, this time the A3.

I played some Battlefield: Heroes the other day. Was actually pretty fun despite being in the most uncomfortable position lol. I'll try to get my PC hooked up to my TV, that'll be a lot better on my back haha.

Today not much is happening, weather is kind of crappy, but whatever, I'm doing good today. I can't wait, 2 OPs this weekend!! Might be getting an M203 for my carbine so that excites me a lot!! Have a wonderful day kids! <333

Wow, yesterday I finally finished up most of the Confessh.us coding. What a project that was. I'm very excited to show everyone. There's still one feature we've not added in yet, so I think I'll hold off until it's finished. It's tagging, and it's one of the hardest things to implement, that I can think of. We're very close, I think I would like to shoot for launching next week if possible!

This week is supposed to be really crappy weather-wise so I guess it'll be mostly a movie and fine tuning the code on the site week. I'm okay with that, I guess. I did really want to be out riding and having fun, but there'll be plenty of time for that in the coming days and weeks. I really hope I can get into an OP for airsoft soon, I am so sad that I missed the OP the other weekend, I am sure it was amazing!! Also show season starts soon, I've gotta pretty up the ponies, and get myself ready.

Hrmm, so I've also been working a bit with jimmy  on  making some new styles for Scribbld, you can see what we've done by going into Manage --> Viewing Options. Had a bit of trouble with the CSS sizing and margin crap but it should be fixed now :) If anyone wants, you're more then welcome to submit your own color scheme! The colors we would like are:

•  background color
• header color
• navigation tab color
• content background color
• link color

and I think that's it. Also I might be giving away some free PAID accounts, in trade for some J-Rock/Pop music. First I've got to put together a list of albums I already have. So yeaaaah! :)

Just chillen at work today, nothing special happening. Just chatting with a couple friends, I can't wait to go home and just relax :)

*is squealing with delight!!!*

ben from armor for sleep added me on facebook!!! 

1 - Go to "wikipedia." Hit “random... Read More” or click http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random The first random wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.

2 - Go to "Random quotations" or click http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3 The last four or five words of the very last quote of the page is the title of your first album.

3 - Go to flickr and click on “explore the last seven days” or click http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4 - Use photoshop or similar to put it all together.

Hi all,

I must apologize for not commenting so much. I've been reading almost if not all of your entries. I'll definitely try to keep up with commenting though. It looks like most of you are all doing quite well, and I'm happy about that! Life's too short to be sad.

I've been rather flakey as of late though and I know. I've just been dealing with some personal issues mostly. This whole winter thing makes me depressed. It's been happening for years now though, probably since the beginning of high school. I guess I should be used to it by now, but I'm not. Every winter I just so sad and down about everything regardless of whether or not it's a happy thing or not. It's terrible and I hate it. I know I've actually read about it and I know I'm not the only one who experiences it. I know they even put some people on meds. I don't think I want to do that though. I'm not one for remedying things by drugs. But maybe I should, if it would really help me that is.

I've also been having some relationship troubles, but I believe most of that is really cleared up. I think Brian and I just rushed into the relationship without really getting to know each other. I mean, I have known him for years, but never like this. We just we like oh, I like you and you like me, let's be boyfriend/girlfriend and that was that. It's all cool now though, and we're totally happy with each other. I think going out and down to MA these past few weekends have been so good for us. We really got to just be away from things, away from people, and with each other. Plus, we got to see some really great bands, Funeral for a Friend and Every Time I Die, both bands we highly enjoy.

Speaking of music, anyone heard the new Thursday album? Amazing?! YES/YES!!! Haha I love it soooo much, it's like the only thing I was listening to on my iPod today. Also the new Lamb of God album is quite good too!

Hrmm, so I've been really busy with work too, and riding. I've got to start getting the horses in shape for this coming show season and what better time to start then now haha. I've been slowly working my way to hitting or looping in CoD4 again before my LIVE account expires. I think I am going to be relived when it does though. I can finally start to work on my other games that I've not touched. I've got games from 04 that are still in their shrink wrap lol. It sucks, I am so bad at video games. I find one that I really like and that's all I end up playing lol So I guess I'll be finishing Star Fox Adventures as one of the first ones...then we'll go from there. I'll be working on finishing games that I've started but never finished first, then I'll start games that I never touched. I am really excited haha.I'd also like to start reading more books. So I've got a lot going on hehe.

Oh, iPhone is finally available here in Vermont, not like it means a lot to me, but finally after like 2.5 years, it's available up here haha. That also means we've got AT&T up here, very cool! :) I've had my iPhone since day 1...so I guess I had my 2.5 years of being cool...

Not sure if I've got anything useful left to say. Hope all is well with every one else!

You're standing there alone 
And so am I 
But I want you here 
By my side 
Your smile at me 
Is everything 
The staring game 
That song of love. 

I look you in the eyes 
I try to read your thoughts 
I ask you to go with me 
To a far off place. 
Oh. 

I look you in the eyes 
I try to read your thoughts 
I ask you to go with me 
To a far off place. 
Oh.  

You and me dancing the night away 
You can feel my heart beating so hard. 
We look eye to eye 
And I'm swept away. 
On a moonlit walk on the beach 
Watching the sunrise for the first time 
I'm in a trance 
From that one slowdance. 

You're standing there alone 
And so am I 
But I want you there 
By my side 
Your smile at me 
Is everything 
The staring game 
That song of love. 

I look you in the eyes 
I try to read your thoughts 
I ask you to go with me 
To a far off place. 
Oh. 

I look you in the eyes 
I try to read your thoughts 
I ask you to go with me 
To a far off place. 

You and me dancing the night away 
You can feel my heart beating so hard. 
We look eye to eye 
And I'm swept away. 
On a moonlit walk on the beach 
Watching the sunrise for the first time 
I'm in a trance 
From that one slowdance. 

We don't have to talk, 
We don't have to laugh at all 
I just want you here with me 

We don't have to talk, 
We don't have to laugh at all 
I just want to be 
You and me 

You and me dancing the night away 
You can feel my hearting beating so hard 
We look eye to eye 
And im swept away. 
On a moonlit walk on the beach 
Watching the sunrise for the first time 
I'm in a trance 
From that one slowdance. 

 "I'm here for you" she said
and we can stay for awhile,
my boyfriend's gone,
we can just pretend.
Lips that need no introduction
Now who's the greater sin,
Your drab eyes seem to invite
(tell me darling) Where do we begin.

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips
Your lies
Your lust
Like the devils in your hands

Everyone in this town
is seeing somebody else
Everybody's tired of someone
our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now
I'm tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips
Your lies
Your lust
Like the devils in your hands

Failure is your disease
You want my outline drawn
You are my greatest failure
Discourse your saving song

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips
Your lies
Your lust
Like the devils in your hands

Was this over before
Before it ever began
Your kiss
Your calls
Your crutch
Like the devils got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips
Your lies
Your lust
Like the devils in your hands

 Wow, it's been an amazingly busy weekend and stuff! I wish I had more time to write!! I don't really remember what happened Saturday, just hanging with Brian, Call of Duty and computer stuff. Sunday, Brian had stuff to do, so I hung out by myself for most of the day. Got a bunch of things done though. I played the Biohazard 5 demo, which is AMAZING. It definitely doesn't feel like Resident Evil though, I guess I am used to how Resident Evil 1, 2, CV, & Outbreak play. It definitely feels like a different game, it looks amazing though, I really enjoy it. I keep getting killed though. Brian really likes it too, I finally have a boyfriend who enjoys video games like I do, it's amazing. Actually, he's probably better at them then me haha.

So Sunday night, not much happened...well, I lie. I played COD4 with ltdan  and raf  and it was amazing! We had so much fun, I love playing with those guys! We all did really well. Then I spent some time on AP, and posted a bunch, chatted with friends. Raf is totally dating this chicka Jenny (who I think is amazing). It's so cute, I love it. I am so happy for him and them :D It's quite fabulous.

Umm...I got some stuff done on YouAreTheScene today, felt good. New moderated chatbox, although it's kind of ugly. Whatever...

Brian asked me to go to this dance his college is putting on, obviously I said yes, I know he doesn't wanna go, but he's going cause it'll be fun and I'm going to go too lol. It'll be cute, he's so cute hehe...

Man, I just got pwnt by the mail servers, if it's not one thing it's another around here...just spent like 3 hours trying to fix em, I think we've finally got it all locked down...I've just got to watch Percheron like a hawk...thank you LtDan <3

So yeah all that time, Brian's been playing the Biohazard 5 demo...he said he's going to beat it before I do. I actually think he was able to clear the first stage but he's having some trouble (at least it sounds like he is, or he's swearing at invisible people in there)...hehe. He's so adorable and funny.

In any event, there's a little bit more drama going on, but fortunately for me, it's not really my story nor am I involved haha Hehehe. Umm so yeah, I'm off now, I think we're going to watch a movie or something...

( Adult Content?! )

As mentioned in my previous post I got the new Fall Out Boy, it's okay. Not the best, I think I like Infinity on High more. I've also got a buncha new albums, Stay - Hustle EP which is amazing. I also got all of the Darkest Hour albums and I'm in love with them all, I've seen them live once and it was AMAZING. I've also been listening to the other Dance Gavin Dance album, which has an amazing song called - Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most (feat. Nic Newsham) on it. I love it. I've been totally spamming on AP too, haha I've made some really good friends on there, Erik, Evan, Eric, Brooklyn and Rachel. Amazing people <3

Hrmm, ok, well I guess I better stop here, or else I'll never get any Brian time haha Love you all!!!

xoxoxmorgan

I think I like it :) 

 So don't give up on me We can be still pretend This is all just a game That'll work itself out in the end.

- Darkest Hour

 

Yesterday was a pretty uneventful. I actually got a bunch of work done so I think that was nice. I had a bunch of repairs, no calls which was nice. I spent the day talking to friends, hanging out on AP and working on xBetas. Picked up some chicken wings and a salad for dinner. It was amazingly yummy. Adam stopped by and returned my copy of Gears of War, he wanted to hangout but I told him I was busy and maybe some other time, which probably means tonight, but I am not sure. I was supposed to play some Xbox last night but that obviously never happened.

So I spent pretty much the entire night chatting with friends. raf,Chris and I stayed up until like 2am on Skype. Talked about so many things, things I cannot even repeat! It was definitely a good night though, I love those guys. Hrmm Chris left around 2am, Raf and I stayed up until about 4am...I slept like a rock, and unfortunately woke up at like 5-5:30am and did some horse chores. Then I went back to bed until about 9:30am.

Chatted with Raf for a bit, hung out on AP, did emails, read journals, etc...had some pizza for lunch which was excellent. Then I took a nap until about 2:30pm. Read some more emails. Had a battle with Percheron/Palomino and Postfix...apparently it didn't like that I was sending emails from percheron.localdomain, so after messing around with some configuration files, I think I fixed that issue and now emails from Percheron are coming through better. What a pain in the ass that was...that's one of the two computer issues I hate deal with...email and DNS. BLECH!

And now I'm thinking about heading out to the barn so I can get those chores done and some horses worked :)

I am not sure if tonight will be a late night, I would like to get some Xbox in, I think...but I may just curl up and watch a movie.

xoxomorgan

Wow, I've been really busy today. I was supposed to just be like chillen, watching movies or something, but I've been kinda busy! Been posting a lot of AP, they're really fun over there hehe. I also started real work on the seakretz project which is actually xBetas.com !!! Shaunt hooked me and LtDan up with the domain, so I just installed some forums, and I am really hoping to get a bunch of the regulars and old school xBetas members back just for some fun and good times :) Been making a bunch of friends on here and AP too which is awesome!!

Hrmm, so I guess I should get going and get some lunch and hit up the barn!

xoxoxmorgan

"decemberunderground is a time and a place. It is where the cold can huddle together in darkness and isolation. It is a community of those detached and disillusioned who flee to love, like winter, in the recesses below the rest of the world." -Davey Havok

I don't know why I am awake at this god awful hour. I am a bit hungry, but I have no intention of getting something to eat. So yesterday I worked a bit more on the seakretz project, but just a little. Then I fixed my MX records cause it was screwing up all my email. Stupid Laconica haha hrmm, chatted with raf  a lot. I was going to take a nap, and I did for like 30 minutes then Katie called and told me she had just broken up with her boyfriend of like 3 years...so I went over to her place and we kind of just talked and I made an attempt to make her feel a bit better. Then we both learned that this girl who has a sister in my brother class and who herself was 1 grade below us hung/hanged? herself the other night. Definitely not cool and it didn't help the mood. Then I went to the barn only to find out JP had a nice big bloody cut above his eye. So I spent a bunch of time fixing that lol. I didn't call the vet cause it's wasn't all that bad, just bloody, not too deep, fortunately.

So I finally made it home around 6 or 7pm. Pretty much spent the night talking to friends. I reg'd on AbsolutePunk, it's really fun. People there are nice, maybe a bit crazy, but nice nonetheless. Tons of pointless threads but whatever it's fun!! Spent some time discussing Autobots, the Decepticons and Megan Fox with Chris LOL. I need to syndicate his blog here.

Hrmm, I eventually ended up going to bed around 1am. I was so tired, so I am a bit confused as to why I am not tired at all right now lol. Today (Monday) is pretty much unscheduled. I don't really have much going on, I'll probably chat with Raf in the AM, and then figure something to do in the afternoon since he'll be in a meeting. Tonight, no idea either, I'll probably go to work the horses since I didn't get to yesterday.

I also joined some music website, it looks pretty cool. The guy is nice :) He's in MA, so that's pretty close to me.

I definitely see either a nice warm bath or a nice warm shower in my near future though! It's soooo cold. Currently it's 14 degrees. Yuck! I'm going to have to actually break out my winter jacket, eeep!! Oh and hi to my new friend -- thisismatt .

Alright well I am going to try to get some sleep. It was nice and warm/cozy hehe If not I'll watch a movie or some TV/anime shows.

xooxmorgan

 Wow, the last few days have been weird! But I think in a good way. Good weird...I know I wrote that I'd be logging off the nets for a couple days, but since this is basically my little journal, I thought it would be similar to writing in a paper one, so this doesn't count ;) I am not checking emails, FaceBook, Twitter, none of it...I'm just writing in here.

Yesterday was raf's birthday. It sounds like he had a pretty good day, a really good day I guess. I'm glad he liked my present. I got him an XBox 360 w/ Call of Duty 4 and we ended up playing for a couple hours. I definitely had fun. I can really get more kills without that stupid cast (which is being put back on today unfortunately). I doubt they'll do it in pink, but you never know, I'm going to ask anyways.

I think I am pretty much over being sick which is really nice. I basically just had a sore throat and a bit of a runny nose for a couple days. I was definitely miserable during those days, but it's better then being sick for weeks. I'm still taking a couple meds to get me through the day, but it's not too bad anymore.

So I told Rafael that I wanted to get another tattoo, I was thinking of getting something that would make me laugh each time I saw it, something related to me and him, but he just said he hates tattoos and not to talk to about it with him, oh well. I'll figure something cool out. I thought about getting a couple little Mario stars or something cute ^__^ not sure though.

So apparently him and this girl are going to hook up. I won't name names because this is a public entry and I promised him I would keep my mouth shut (for the moment). I think it's totally awesome! I'm all for it, but he seems to down about it, I mean yeah I'm definitely not going to be the same girl around him when he does and now knowing but it's not like I'm that much different, HA HA HA I can still be funny. I don't really know if I want to talk more about the subject. I really feel good about them though, I think if that makes him the happiest boy in the world, then I'll be the happiest girl in the world for him. I'm totally behind him 100%!

So it snowed again last night, I've got like an inch or two on my lawn, and it's pretty :) Tonight I am going out to dinner with Nikki and I think we might go to the movies too. I know this might sound odd, but I think I am going to focus on my real life friends, not that I don't care about my friends online, because I most definitely do. I just have so many good people here that I can hug and hold and talk face to face with. And I know I make it that way, and because I do I think I should start doing so. This weekend I don't really have plans, I don't know what I am going to do, maybe I'll go hangout with my brother and his friends for a bit.

I played through some of the Banjo Kazooie: Nuts and Bolts demo last night. I couldn't stop giggling. It reminded me of so many good times back in the day, Nintendo 64, staying up late with friends playing Mario Kart and all. I think I am going to buy the guide for the full game, I remember needing it for the N64 version cause of all the music notes, and puzzle pieces, but now it looks like they've introduced like "go-karts" or something...I love Mumbo Jumbo! EEECOMPOKUM! :)

Alright, so I've got a doctor's appointment shortly so I should probably get dressed and stop yapping! I hope everyone has a lovely Friday!

xooxxmorgan