From: mightbeclever	Date: March 23rd, 2011 08:09 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Maybe, but would you have said no to Voldemort? Or someone else like him?" Leon shrugged. He was fully aware that his leanings on the matter were contrary to most other people's. "Doesn't matter really. So long as it isn't you."

Closing the book, he rolled his eyes a little before looking at Avery. "Fine, sorry. Want me to kiss it better too?" It was out of his mouth before he'd fully thought the comment through. The lightest hint of blush hit his cheeks, then, as he turned away from the other boy and cleared his throat.

"Yeah, well. She's not really my type either." He said with some sort of finality to the comment. He didn't want to talk about his cousin anymore.

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 23rd, 2011 08:42 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Personally I wouldn't have bothered with him. Murder's so uncivilised." And besides, who wanted to follow someone that didn't even have their own nose anymore?

The flush was hard to miss. Avery shuffled nearer and leaned into the older boy's neck, watching his profile for a reaction.

"If you want to," he offered. "There's no one around to see..."

Avery was more than happy to let the talk about Leon's cousin drop. After all, neither of them were really interested in girls much, were they?

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 24th, 2011 02:01 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"He would have probably killed my dad, if we hadn't left." After the ministry had, basically, fallen to Voldemort, muggle-born witches and wizards were prey. But that was in the past, and didn't matter all that much anymore.

And when Avery inched closer, all concern for the previous conversation fled. His eyes cut to the side, wide and a bit uncertain. 'If you want to'? Was this a trick?

Clearing his throat, Leon glanced away again and frowned. "Even if I did, why would you want me to?" He asked, fidgeting nervously. It was a set up. It had to be. After all the shit he'd given Avery over the years, how could the boy not be out for a little pay back?

"Shouldn't you hate me by now?"

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 24th, 2011 06:07 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"My family never joined, but I think they approved of his ideas at least. Getting rid of muggle-borns is always going to get the approval of purebloods."

A smile found its way to his lips as Leon tried not to look at him. Avery crept a bit closer, so that his breath hit the older boy's neck when he spoke.

"Shouldn't you hate me by now? I give as much as I get, Leon. Always have, and I suppose I always will. And you're so easy to wind up, which is part of the reason why I can't possibly hate you. You're far too much fun when you're angry."

Avery reached out to touch Leon's shoulder, letting his fingers wander down Leon's arm. "I also think that we're very much the same underneath, more so than you might think. And of course, I find you quite attractive..."

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 24th, 2011 06:18 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"...A winning attitude, that. You were all muggle-born at some point." It wasn't as if magic created them, after all. More like...evolved talent, magic. "If you look far enough back, at least."

Still, his jaw clenched as Avery moved even closer, goosebumps rising up where the boy's breath danced over his skin. It was toxic, and intoxicating at the same time, and it took everything he had to not shutter a little at the feelings it brought out of him.

"I do hate you, you fucking poof. Or did you miss that part?" Though he'd lost some of the conviction. Was something wrong with him? This was not the sort of reaction he wanted to have.

Though it was increasingly hard to deny some truth to the conversation. A part of him did want to kiss a boy. But kiss Avery? He wasn't sure of that one just yet.

"You saying you want to kiss me, you little fag? Have some sort of hard on for me, or something?" He turned to look at the other boy with a determined frown on his face, hands balling into fist at the touch of Avery's hand. "Want to get into my pants right now?"

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 24th, 2011 06:41 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Well excuse me for telling the truth. It's not as though I could lie, is it?" He sighed and brushed his hair back. "I can trace my family back centuries, and before that they were probably just a part of another pureblood family. How far back are you going with this nonsense?"

And with the barest of touches, the Leon that Avery had been talking to was swept away, only to be replaced by Leon the Homophobe. All chances of having a meaningful conversation had been lost; they were back to playing out their love/hate game again. As always.

What a shame.

"You don't hate me. You say that you hate me, which is a completely different thing," he pointed out. "And I just said that I thought you were attractive, didn't I? Obviously I want to shag you. What would be the point if in fancying you if I didn't want a fuck?"

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 24th, 2011 07:05 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Forget it." He said with a huff, flopping down to the ground again with a bit of a surly expression. The whole matter was just a giant bother anyway, what was the point? It wasn't like any pureblood like Avery would care about someone like his father.

Swallowing, he moved his arm away from Avery crossing both over his chest as he chewed on his lip. Maybe the mangy mutt had a point. Maybe he was hoping he would hate someone like Avery if he said it enough. He knew he hated how open Avery was with his sexuality, and how...flamboyant he was. But was that it?

"So you want to shag me," he said after a moment, mulling it over in his head with a moody expression. "You've shagged other boys, then? Not just wanked off to porn on the computer, or something?" Leon certainly never had done either of those. He still wasn't brave enough to look at that sort of thing...well, not more than a picture or two. That stupid magazine he'd gotten for a Secret Santa had proven more...useful than he'd like to admit.

Sitting up again he, he unfolded his arms and pointed a bit accusingly at the other boy. "I have a girlfriend, you know. Isn't like I'm just going to go shagging people like you."

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 24th, 2011 07:36 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Avery grinned. "Well of course I've shagged other boys. You don't really think I can pass for a wide eyed virgin, do you?" He laughed a little, not even waiting for an answer to his question. "I lost that last summer, but even before it happened I was far from innocent."

Why did it matter who he'd slept with? He wasn't coming back to that herpes comment, was he? Or was his statement a serious consideration?

"Perhaps you should. Perhaps not shagging people like me is your problem." As manly as she was, Addy was still female. That can't have been much fun in the bedroom, not when Leon secretly (or not so secretly) preferred cock.

"Perhaps," Avery purred, "you should find out what you're missing."

He didn't give the older boy much time to consider an answer before pressing his mouth to Leon's to steal a kiss.

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 24th, 2011 08:13 pm (UTC)		(Link)

He had something to say, but whatever it was died the moment warm lips pressed against his own. For a moment everything stood still, in the story book way that often spoke of 'that first kiss'. It was electric, and horrifying at the same time. He sat frozen, unsure of what to do even as his heart began to beat wildly.

Push him away, push him away... a part of his mind argued, while another hissed with excited enjoyment. He couldn't decide, he couldn't figure out what he needed to listen to...

And in the end, a hand reached up as Avery started to pulled away. His fingers brushed lightly over the other boy's soft skin gingerly, as if he'd never before touched another person. Closing the small gap between them, their lips met for a second time.

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 24th, 2011 08:45 pm (UTC)		(Link)

And so he'd kissed his enemy, and his enemy had kissed back. Avery felt a rush of adrenaline as he locked lips with Leon for a second time. He'd been almost certain that the other boy would pull away.

Slowly, Avery slipped his arms around Leon's shoulders, knotting them against the back of his neck. Of course he kissed back, but perhaps not as hungrily as he wanted to; it wouldn't do to overwhelm Leon now in case he backed off again. The tip of Avery's tongue brushed ever so slightly against Leon's lips as he pulled himself nearer, leaning into the hand pressed against his cheek.

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 24th, 2011 09:36 pm (UTC)		(Link)

He did part his lips, just a bit at first, testing the grounds as it were. It was really no different than kiss any one else. Avery's lips were as warm as Adelaide's, his skin was as soft. It was firmer, but...better.

Shit, he thought to himself, before breaking off that kiss and pulling away. Had he really just done that? Had he really just kissed a boy out on the quodpot field?

"Merde," he repeated in French, looking away from Avery as he pulled his hand away...but he made no effort to untangle himself from the boy's grasp. Instead he sat there, looking as confused about everything as he felt.

Was he really doing this? Right now?

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 24th, 2011 10:03 pm (UTC)		(Link)

Avery licked his lips and looked at Leon. He...didn't seem anywhere near as relieved as Avery had been upon experiencing his first gay kiss. If anything it appeared to have given Leon less of an understanding of his sexuality than he had before it happened.

"What's the matter?" he asked quietly. "You wanted to, didn't you? You kissed me back."

Pressing a kiss to Leon's cheek, Avery offered him a small smile. "It was nice."

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 25th, 2011 07:19 pm (UTC)		(Link)

He didn't want talk, but Avery opened his mouth sure enough. There was no amount of relief at knowing that cementing the truth only damned him. After all, it wasn't like he could run home and tell mum now was it?

"Yeah, I did." He said with a scoff, looking back at Avery again. "You can't tel people. You can't tell Addy."

He was already going to hurt her, she didn't need to know the truth of it was because of...well being gay.

"Why can't you just fuck off, instead of getting in the middle of things?"

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 25th, 2011 08:05 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I'm not going to tell them," he replied. "If I do I might not get to kiss you again."

Avery sighed and rested his head on Leon's shoulder. He pushed the bridge of his nose up agains Leon's skin, inhaling the scent of his washing powder, his soap.

"Why can't you just enjoy the moment instead of being such a killjoy? We kissed, we liked it, nobody knows. Stop thinking about all of the silly complications and start thinking about how good it made you feel. That's what's important, isn't it?"

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 25th, 2011 08:21 pm (UTC)		(Link)

He gave Avery a skeptical look, before pulling away to lay down on the ground again. He really wasn't sure he trusted that Avery wasn't going to say anything. There was just something about him that didn't seem the type to keep secrets.

It make the 'thinking about how good' it felt rather difficult. He swallowed a little, shifting on the ground. He moved one hand to his jeans, fidgeting a little as he pulled the fabric down a little.

"Whatever," he muttered finally, looking at Avery carefully as the sun passed behind a cloud. "So...what...now?"

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 26th, 2011 07:42 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"We could carry on...or we could talk. You know, you're almost tolerable when you drop all of that ridiculous macho-homophobe rubbish," Avery said with a smile.

Taking his cue from Leon, Avery lay down on the ground, resting his hands on his stomach. He glanced across to the other boy as he tugged and pulled at his shirt.

"Is there a reason why you keep squirming? Got a hard on for me or something, you little fag?" He smirked at Leon. "I can do something about it for you, if you do have one."

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 28th, 2011 02:28 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Oh gee, thanks. Now that I'm 'tolerable', why don't we go frolic in the daisies?" Leon rolled his eyes, huffing a little. He wasn't one to talk about anything at great length with anyone. In fact, he was pretty convinced that 'talking' was one of the largest waste of time.

"No, I don't." He snapped, looking at Avery side long. "My balls itch, what do you care?" He paused for a second, chewing on his bottom lip. This was the most uncomfortable experience in his life, he decided; sharing space with Avery.

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 28th, 2011 04:19 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Frolic in the daisies?" Avery laughed before shaking his head. "Is that what you think gay people do? I suppose in your head we all wear pastels and buy scatter cushions and touch each other's bottoms all of the time, don't we?"

Leon had reversed right back into being intolerable again, but Avery didn't mind much; he was more fun to bother when he was surly.

"Because I'd like to get up close and personal with your cock, isnt that obvious?" He smiled then turned onto his side and reached out to stroke the inside of Leon's thigh. "If you don't want to talk then we'll have to do something. Any suggestions?"

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 28th, 2011 11:44 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"No, just you." He yawned, scrubbing a hand over his face. "You probably grope ever arse you can. Or just get a handful of cock and balls." He didn't even know what a scatter pillow was. Hell, he wasn't sure he wanted o know. It sounded far too girlish.

He turned his head to look at Avery, making a bit of a face as Avery spoke. Reaching down, he caught the other boy's wrist in his hand.

"You think you can kiss, and get a hand my jeans?" Jeez, Leon thought, this was the sort of thing Adelaide used to bitch about him all through junior year. "Fine, what do you want to talk about it?"

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 29th, 2011 03:32 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I wouldn't say I get a handful, but I like to have a good feel." He threw a smirk at Leon. There was no point protesting something so close to the truth.

Unless of course, you were Leon. Had that kiss done anything? He was practically glowering and all because of a little bit of leg-stroking; if he ever got over himself he might actually enjoy it.

"Leon Shaw wants to take it slow?" Avery laughed incredulously. "I was sure you'd be an easy lay. What do I have to do to get into your saggy-arsed jeans then? Take you to dinner, buy front row seats for the theatre, what?"

So they were back on talking. Avery drew circles on the ground with his fingers. What did he want to talk about? Where did he start?!

"Why do you say that you hate me? And why are you so agressive? Being like that isn't going to change the fact that you like to kiss boys, you know."

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 29th, 2011 07:03 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"What's with you and thinking I just want to fuck off and shag?" The idea was terrifying. He had only ever had sex once, and it had hardly been this wonderful, glamorous experience. He was pretty sure, in fact, that it had been a natural train wreck.

"What? How do you even go from kissing to shagging? How does that even remotely make sense to you?" He rolled his eyes, "sorry, hate to disappoint."

But then he stared at the boy, unsure if he even wanted to answer that. They'd kissed, after all, not fallen in love and gotten married. Why did he even want to know that sort of thing?

"Don't take it so personal," he said with a bit of a sigh, reaching up to rub his forehead. "I hate everyone equally. And myself the most. Don't feel so fucking special."

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 29th, 2011 07:19 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with you would be more accurate! What would be the point in kissing someone back if you don't want to shag them further down the line? If you don't want to fuck me then why would you do it?" He stared at Leon for a long moment. He really didn't get this, did he? Was he still a virgin?

"Sex is a natural progression. You kiss, snog, grope, wank off, suck off, finger and eventually that's where you end up. How does kissing without wanting anything else even make sense to you?"

Avery reached out to touch Leon's hand. Trying to keep his affections to a minimal he stroked the flat tip of his index finger over the other boy's nails. More tolerable than a crotch-stroke, right?

"Why hate yourself? If you're going to be such an arsehole to people then you might as well enjoy it." He paused and looked at his hands, then turned his gaze on Leon again. "How did you feel when I kissed you? What made you kiss me back?"

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 29th, 2011 07:37 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"Because we're fucking in the middle of a quodpot field, and I don't really want to whip it out where a professor can wander up." Leon snapped, "why do you want to have sex right now? Got a stiffy?"

He chose to ignore the rest, rolling his eyes even as he felt the touch of Avery's hand against his. His eyes dropped down to their hands for a moment, lingering as he tried to imagine how he'd even gotten to this point.

"Why not?" He asked, looking up at Avery with a less than amused expression. "It isn't like I can flip a switch form self-loathing to happy, twat monkey." He looked away, mulling over the last set of questions with a scowl on his face. "I felt like a stupid girl in a romance, yeah? Happy? I liked it, and I wanted to kiss you back. So I did. Are we done with that sort of question now? Can we talk about something else?"

From: iliketokissboys	Date: March 29th, 2011 07:54 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"I never said I wanted to do it here, I just said that it was a natural progression," he clarified. Not that he'd turn Leon down if he offered, but that was very unlikely right now. "And no, I haven't, but you're welcome to double check if you like."

Avery's hand worked its way up slightly, stroking the lengths of each of Leon's fingers in turn.

"But why do you want to be like that? It's depressing. Shouldn't you see someone about that sort of thing? I would." Avery sighed and brushed a hand through his hair. It was like dealing with a petulant child. How was he meant to seduce this?

"Fine, fine, we'll change the subject," Avery replied wearily. He was quite pleased that Leon had liked the kiss though; that was a start, wasn't it? "You know what you were saying earlier, about your uncle...well it's just that I noticed you were taking your time with my book and...I don't suppose you'd have much of an interest in all of that dark magic business, would you?"

	From: mightbeclever	Date: March 29th, 2011 08:07 pm (UTC)		(Link)

"...You want me to grope you?" He gave Avery a skeptical look, before rolling his eyes. Oh, right. Because of course he'd never thought about 'professional' help. It wasn't like that had never been spoken aloud by anyone or anything.

"Oh yeah, you spend your life being happy because a pill makes you 'happy'. It isn't like you don't know it is all fake. All some giant lie, mocking you." He was broken goods, and why anyone wanted his company was beyond him. "And when people are too busy hating you, they can't very well be disappointed about how you never measure up to their expectations. It works for me, why break system?"

But then his brows shot up, and he pushed himself up on one forearm too look down at Avery. As he sat and wondered about the questions before him, one finger curled up and hooked about Avery's, holding it captive in a loose grip. "And if I said I knew a bit?" He asked skeptically. After all, the Dark Arts wasn't something most people wanted to own up to.