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zach ([info]zloper) wrote in [info]valesco,
@ 2009-06-20 18:30:00


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Brianna
Zach was not sure what he had done (except he was sure that he hadn't DONE anything so maybe he'd forgotten something but that didn't seem the case) but he headed over to Brianna's as soon as he could find his other shoe. Which wasn't exactly needed, but now that he was a model Zach felt like he needed to look like one most of the time. Zach arrived in Brianna's flat with a pop, looking around carefully so he wouldn't be taken off guard by a smack or something.

He wouldn't put it past her to do something like that - it was times like this that Zach thought she was more Slytherin than he was.

"Hello? Am I still in trouble?"


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[info]brianana
2009-06-21 04:18 am UTC (link)
Brianna was not about slap her boyfriend. Actually, she was too busy searching around her kitchen for a brown paper bag because she was about to hyperventilate upon realizing that she had just asked him to (well--yelled violently at him to) come over so she could tell him that she was---

---was totally going to faint or something. Which might be good right now, because then she wouldn't have to say anything! But she'd have to eventually so what good did that do even?

Groaning, she leaned back against the wall and slumped to the floor, shutting her eyes and the cabinet she'd been digging in with a smack of frustration and helplessness. However, a crack of Apparition threw her to her feet again only a second later as it, along with Zach's voice, resonated throughout the apartment.

Damn it all, she had to do this for real, didn't she? She still wasn't sure if she was going to be breathing long enough to actually get it out.

"No, for Merlin's sake, just come here," Brianna finally called out, realizing that she was not willing to go out and greet him with a big smile like everything was all lovely and fine. Everything was certainly not all lovely and fine. What in the world was she supposed to do now?

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[info]zloper
2009-06-21 04:49 am UTC (link)
Zach followed Brianna's voice through the flat, flipping his hair slightly and kind of worried at the time that it took Brianna to respond. Maybe there was something really wrong, like, well, Zach couldn't think of anything too wrong, Brianna was the one that had told him that Death Eaters and shit wouldn't come after them.

"Okay, if I'm not in trouble and we're not having sex but you're still yelling at me, what's wrong? Is it that pizza thing still because I thought you liked that weird pizza," Zach said, frowning at Brianna and leaning against the counter. What was the paper bag for? "Are we making lunch?"

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[info]brianana
2009-06-21 05:02 am UTC (link)
Just when she had thought she was done yelling, there Zach went again saying something utterly idiotic and setting her off again. Did he NEVER know when to not open his mouth and ask some stupid question? Could he not see that she was not in the mood for this sort of thing? That something was wrong, perchance? No no, she was only standing here gripping the counter to dear life and looking miserable, what kind of a sign was that?

"I swear to GOD!" Brianna shouted, effectively crushing the bag in a sudden tight fist. "Do I seriously LOOK like I wanted you over here urgently to help me pack sandwiches!?"

She didn't want to be yelling at him, but he was--! This was--! She didn't want to yell at a time like this, when she had something like this to tell him, but she couldn't help it! The littlest things were setting her off lately and it was like she lost total control of herself and just needed to choke something to get out the frustration.

Which was why she was staying on this side of the kitchen.

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[info]zloper
2009-06-21 05:14 am UTC (link)
Zach's eyes went wide at her outburst and he leaned back a little, stuffing his hands in his pockets and looking at the floor. Maybe this was one of those times where girls said one thing but meant the exact opposite. So that meant she was angry at him for something. But he hadn't done anything.

And now he wanted a sandwich.

"Uh, well I don't know what you want! I was packing and you wanted me over here and so I'm here! If you're just going to yell at me I can go." Zach really wasn't going leave but if she was just going to fight he wanted to know what he did wrong!

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[info]brianana
2009-06-21 05:24 am UTC (link)
Why couldn't boys just develop psychic abilities already? It'd certainly make their relationship a lot more stable if he could just read her mind and figure it out on his own---not to mention make her life a whole lot easier at this point. She still hadn't figured out how she was supposed to go about phrasing things so as to avoid making him feel like they were in any more enormous shit than they were already actually in.

Uggh, she was just wanted to pull her hair out! This was impossible!

"I'm not TRYING to yell at you!" she replied... still yelling. "I'm just not---it's not---hormones, it's the hormones!" Brianna wondered if she looked yet like she was going to cry, because she felt about ready to at this point. "And if you walk out that door there's going to be a lot more yelling, so don't take a step because I will hex you in place!"

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[info]zloper
2009-06-21 05:40 am UTC (link)
"Do I look like I'm going anywhere? Seriously, I am standing here waiting for you to yell at me some more, that should say something!" Zach said, trying not to roll his eyes. "Maybe if you tell me what has you all huffy and mad at me? Why are you going to cry? I didn't say I was going to leave just that you should tell me if you don't want me here, really."

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[info]brianana
2009-06-21 05:54 am UTC (link)
"I'M PREGNANT, ZACH, I'M BLOODY PREGNANT, SO CAN YOU UNDERSTAND FOR ONE SECOND WHY I'M NOT FEELING TOO UP TO DEALING WITH STUPID ARGUMENTS RIGHT NOW?"

If she had heard herself right, Brianna thought she might have just screamed that loud enough for this whole half of London to hear. But to tell the truth, she really hadn't been tuned in for any of that because she was too mad and too upset and too freaked out to think any more about how to say it. She had just---said it. No more hesitation or worrying about what the best way to do it would be. At this point, she didn't think it would have mattered if she had thought about it beforehand, because she was too worked up to deliver it well anyway.

Haha, what a pun. Her life was so over.

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[info]zloper
2009-06-21 06:19 am UTC (link)
Zach nearly burst out laughing, because that probably would have been the greatest joke ever if Brianna didn't look so scared and angry about it. Pregnant? As in like. A baby? Zach's eyes got wide as he stared at Brianna, looking at her stomach and swallowing thickly.

Pregnant. His? Of course, that would be stupid to ask. Even stupider to think about! He needed to get his thoughts back on Brianna and this situation. Pregnant. Baby. What was he supposed to do or say?

"Okay," Zach said, running one hand through his hair and sighing a little before looking at Brianna questioningly. "Er, what now?"

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[info]brianana
2009-06-21 06:52 pm UTC (link)
Was there any point in her life more than now when Brianna could have used for Zach to give her more than a dumbfounded stare and unhelpful response?

"What---I don't---" Then again, did she have anything more helpful that she could say to him? In the aftershock of her outburst, Brianna realized that she was thinking the exact same thing. She'd said it, so---what now? She'd been so consumed with worrying about how she was going to tell him she was pregnant that she hadn't had a chance yet to think about what happened with them after it was out in the open.

Brianna ran a hand back through her hair and slumped back against the kitchen counter again. What now? "I don't know. Just thought I should---tell you."

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[info]zloper
2009-06-21 11:35 pm UTC (link)
"Oh, well, I'm glad you told me," Zach said, not sure what else to say to that, but Brianna looked kind of sad so he moved across the kitchen to stand next to her and looked down at her with a slight shrug. Now that he knew she wasn't going to hit him or something, it was safe to get closer. His thoughts had pretty much stalled on one point. Baby. They were having a baby.

So, he hadn't thought it would happen like this and he was pretty sure that his parents would have thought he would be married before then but, who cared? They were together (and probably should move in at some point) and that is what mattered right? Oddly, Zach wasn't terrified by this prospect. If Bertram could have a kid, well, why couldn't he?

Zach's grin started slowly and he bumped his arm against Brianna's shoulder, looking a her as his grin got a little bigger. "We're gonna have a kid!"

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[info]brianana
2009-06-22 03:13 am UTC (link)
Her mouth must have hit the floor.

If she was correct, her boyfriend---her boyfriend, the one that wasn't even 20 yet and had just recently gotten mature enough to get a job--was standing here knocking her shoulder and exclaiming that they were going to have a kid. Like he was excited.

All Brianna could do was stare dumbfounded at him, wondering if this was some kind of joke or not. Some kind of weird, weird inappropriate joke. There was no way that that was excitement she heard in his voice.

"You---we're having a---kid, Zachary Sloper!" she sputtered. "What is wrong with you!? We can't have a kid!" Why was she the only one in this room who seemed to be utterly terrified at this?

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[info]zloper
2009-06-22 03:30 am UTC (link)
Zach's eyebrows shot up and he closed his mouth with a snap because that was not the reaction either of them had wanted from each other, obviously. "Uh, yeah you just. Said you were. And why can't we? Fiona and Tom have almost two and Bertram has one and he's had his mum do most of the work."

He shrugged and tapped the counter with one hand. "You have a job and I have a job and money, so it's not like, we're gonna need a lot of help. Kids are cool and it's like. It's a little us. You and me and a baby. Do you know if it's a boy or girl yet?"

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[info]brianana
2009-06-22 05:29 am UTC (link)
She couldn't believe this. She could not believe how well ('well' being a debatable term) he was taking this. What man (BOY HE WAS STILL A BOY) his age just thought it was cool to be having a kid, totally unplanned, with someone he wasn't even married to? Kids derailed your life! They weren't---she didn't dislike kids at all, but they weren't anywhere near ready to have them! They were barely out of school, really!

"Zach!" Brianna had to step away from him, and threw her hands up in the air in--confusion, she was so lost! This was not what she had been expecting, and by all means she should be happy that he was so happy, but... he couldn't be so happy when she was so scared! Scared to death of what she was going to do with a kid, of what this meant for their lives for the next seventeen years.

Oh god, seventeen years.

"It's not just that easy! Babies take responsibility and--and constant commitment and---you have to raise them and be there for them for the rest of their lives and---We're not Fiona and Tom! Or Bertram! I just---get real, this is not just like playing some stupid game of house!"

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[info]zloper
2009-06-22 06:01 am UTC (link)
Zach looked shocked at Brianna's outrage and was starting to get a little mad himself. Why was she angry? He wasn't running away or scared (he was sure that would come later) and she wanted him to...what? What did she want him to do? Flip out like she was? "I didn't say it would be easy! Did the word easy come out of my mouth? Just shut up for a second okay? You're freaking out and that's not going to help anything."

He rubbed his forehead for a moment and sighed. "Do you not want to? Have it. Because, that's up to you. But just, just keep in mind that I'm still standing here. Would I have picked right now to do all of this? No, considering I thought you wanted to have a sandwich ten minutes ago. I don't think it's some game of house but doesn't it mean anything that we've been together for two years and I'm still standing here as you freak out?"

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[info]brianana
2009-06-22 06:19 am UTC (link)
She was pretty sure he had just told her to shut up. He'd told her to shut up, because.. why? Because she was being the rational one here? Because if he thought that the whole not freaking out at all thing made him a better boyfriend, he was wrong. Some situations called for freaking out, and he didn't have to freak out on the level that she was, but the fact that he was downright calm wasn't okay.

"You're here right now, but in nine months, will you still be here?" she challenged him. This was ridiculous. Brianna knew that there was no way that he realized everything that this meant. She loved him, but she knew Zach wasn't always the most mature person in the world. As far as he'd come, she was convinced that right now he had no idea what he was saying. "I'm glad that you're here, don't get me wrong, but when it gets into your head the magnitude of what's coming out of your mouth."

She ran a hand back through her hair for the millionth time in about five minutes and sighed heavily. "Just because we've been together two years, that doesn't mean---that's not the same thing as being married, as being ready for something like this. At least not with a snap of the finger. I'm not asking you to totally freak out, but be realistic Zach, the way you're acting right now is giving me just as little reassurance as you running away would."

She leaned against the opposite counter and crossed her arms over her chest, frowning across the room at him. "And don't even start on the 'don't want to have it' thing, because you should know full well I'm not going to do... that."

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[info]zloper
2009-06-22 07:13 am UTC (link)
Was she serious? Was Brianna actually telling him that she doubted his commitment? That really made Zach hurt. She doubted that he could make his own decisions or didn't know what he was saying. "Right. Yeah, it's not realistic and it doesn't mean anything at all. Because I am not smart enough or understand the words that are coming out of my own mouth?"

Zach shook his head, he couldn't believe her. Why was she pissed off he was okay with this? It seemed completely contradictory to what someone would actually want in this situation. Did she want him to be pissed off and run away? Zach mimicked her posture, except that he was much more sad than Brianna's pissed off stance. "I don't know what you want from me then. If I'm not realistic enough to be standing here and saying what I just said, then what?"

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[info]brianana
2009-06-23 03:51 am UTC (link)
Just when she thought that he couldn't get her worked up any more, there he went again. She didn't even fight the urge to roll her eyes at the 'I'm not smart enough' comments, because---what was he, five? That's what a kid said to their parents to make them guilt them when they were being scolded. Which was yet another indicator that Zach was still more of a child himself than he believed he was. Not ready to have one.

She couldn't do this anymore. Brianna was pretty sure that she was going to end up screaming and pulling her hair out, and she was pretty sure that getting this worked up wasn't something pregnant women were supposed to do. Bloody hell, she needed to get away from him right now.

"You know what, we're not---later, we can talk about this later," she said, her hands going up into the air as if in defeat, before throwing one in the direction of the door. "Go to Italy. Just--go, because I can't do this with you any more tonight. I think a week away from each other is the best thing at the moment."

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[info]zloper
2009-06-23 04:07 am UTC (link)
"Oh, right and kicking me out is so mature." Zach rolled his eyes as well but stood his ground. He wasn't leaving now. She had started this fight which really shouldn't have been a fight in Zach's eyes and she wasn't going to just kick him out because she was tired of arguing. No, this needed to be finished and well, there wasn't anywhere for Zach to go.

"You demanded me to come over here and I'm not leaving until we have this settled. I'm not just going to leave. I'm in this too and just because you 'can't do this' right now doesn't mean you get to stop listening to me," Zach stood up a little straighter and frowned at Brianna, "Actually, I don't think you've heard anything I've actually said, you just hear what you think I'm saying which is not what I'm saying. Yeah, I'm fuckin' kind of happy you're pregnant. I didn't ever think I wanted to be a dad and now you - we're having a kid and that's cool. Like I said, I didn't say it would be easy, but it's still cool. A little person to raise and do stuff with, to be a dad to. So, no I'm not going anywhere until you realise what I'm saying to you."

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[info]brianana
2009-06-23 05:02 am UTC (link)
She was losing it. She was about to lose it. Brianna could feel her blood pumping through her veins, harder at every word that came out of his mouth. He couldn't just--he couldn't just go, of course not, that would be too EASY! No, he was going to insist on staying and continuing to argue with her and fuck, she had a headache, and she put her head in her hands and sunk to the ground but it wouldn't go away because all she could hear were his words.

HAPPY SHE WAS PREGNANT! He was---it was cool? No, it wasn't cool, they were ninteen fucking years old, it wasn't cool and why couldn't he for one second realize that he was only making this worse! She needed understanding support, not someone standing there telling her that this situation was cool. It was if anything making her feel sicker and sicker about the whole thing because the more he talked the more upset she got.

"GET OUT, ZACH! GET OUT!" she yelled at him, sounding frantic because she felt trapped in this kitchen, like she was trapped in a box and all she could hear in between her own heavy breathing were his words bouncing off the sides and smashing into her head. Over and over and---okay, now she was really freaking out; if he had thought she was freaked out before, he didn't know what freaked out was. "GET OUT!"

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