Jessica Byrd (greenwillpower) wrote in dc_nextgen,
@ 2012-01-29 00:21:00

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Fears and deeper thoughts (Harry)
Jess wasn't one to share what she really thought about things. She just kept a brave and stubborn face because she thought if she pushed herself long and hard enough that it would all become true. Of course that still didn't change her waking up freaked out in the middle of the night from a nightmare.

She stumbled in the dark to the kitchen intending on getting a drink to calm her nerves. But as she was getting the juice the worst thing happened.

Big. Hairy. Spider.

She squeaked and dropped both the juice and the cup scrambling backwards.

Oh for crying out loud. It's just a spider. That she can't let near her. It's obviously evil.

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	greenwillpower 2012-01-29 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	It also means her need to wear as few layers as she can get away with to bed won't leave her freezing here. She flashes him a big grin as she allows herself to stretch her arms high above her head. "Oh wow it's really nice here." She can feel her joints pop and her muscles slide to the right point. "It looks a little... different? The trees I mean." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-29 11:57 pm UTC (link)
	"Huh? Oh...well different country and all, maybe that's why." "Told you, sunnier." He sits down and pats the spot next to him, "Want to sit? I like visiting these places, it always makes me feel better." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-30 04:28 am UTC (link)
	"Just where are we?" She dies move to sit next to him. There's no place else to sit and she sees no reason to sit anywhere else. She just yawns fighting back the urge to shut her eyes again and this time focuses on what she can see. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-30 04:34 am UTC (link)
	"New Zealand," he says casually. She's looking better and he's quite pleased that something he's done, he's not sure what really, has helped with her mood. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-30 04:39 am UTC (link)
	"Ah. Explains the greenery," she comments dully. At least she isn't shaking. She thinks that's a win. She's just no where near okay in her mind. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-30 04:55 am UTC (link)
	"Thought a change of scenery might help. It does for me, don't worry I can get us back." He didn't want to pile on a potential inability to get back on her worries so he tries to dispel that one right now. If he got here he can get back. "How're you feeling?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 12:28 am UTC (link)
	"Less twitchy," she admits. "I don't deal with spiders well... and I think I need to keep my window cracked at night or something. To keep me from freaking out if I wake up suddenly." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-31 12:38 am UTC (link)
	"Glad to hear it," he gives her a small smile. "You know...you handle it all very well. Never seem worried or anything around everyone," Harry muses. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 12:45 am UTC (link)
	"I.... hide what I'm really feelin' most of the time. Don't wanna upset anyone," she says with a shrug. She's not used to opening up about her feelings at all. Her Dad had treated her like a boy growing up. Which meant that she was expected to take care of things emotionally on her own. Her Mom hadn't really helped wanting Jess to feel self-sufficant. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

in_reserve
2012-01-31 01:01 am UTC (link)

"Jess...you don't have to do that you know. None of us would be upset, I know I'm not." There's a reassuring smile that tells her that he really doesn't mind at all. He's spent a good chunk of his life listening to other people's problems, friends, family, even when he didn't really feel like he should. But he did realize through all that that bottling things up wasn't good for anyone, and he certainly didn't want her to do that. Not when he was willing to listen.

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greenwillpower
2012-01-31 01:26 am UTC (link)

"I..." She pulls her legs in close tucking them under her chin.

"I've been green longer than Heather has been all... you know. Crystaline. I've been good at covering up how it makes me feel. Everyone thinks I'm okay. and.... I would be if it was just my hair. But it's everything. I don't recognize myself most of the time. I don't feel like me. It's like being stuck in a body suit."

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	in_reserve 2012-01-31 01:38 am UTC (link)
	Harry goes quiet, quieter than he already was, for a bit. He can't say anything about changes the entities have done to anyone, he's got it easy, and there's nothing he can say that will come across well given that fact. So he wraps his arms around her and pulls her in for a hug, "You're still you Jess." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 01:45 am UTC (link)
	"No I'm not. I'm a college drop-out because this took away the one thing I ever wanted," Jess grumps but doesn't fight against him. She sees no reason to. He's trying to make her feel better. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-31 02:03 am UTC (link)
	"I'm sorry Jess," he says quietly. He's not sure why he's apologizing, but he just feels like he should. She's lost a lot and has been holding it in for a long time it seems, so he holds her a little closer. He doesn't want her to think she's alone in all this. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 02:10 am UTC (link)
	Yeah it's hug time. She really doesn't want to talk about how much it hurts that she can't really be a cop. Not like this. And she doesn't think she's smart enough to be a lab technician. Which is dumb of her to think really. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-31 02:15 am UTC (link)
	Harry will continue to hug her until she decides to stop. She needs it and he's glad that she felt she could talk to him about all this. He hopes it helped, even just a little. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 02:20 am UTC (link)
	She's starting to feel better. She's very tired right now though. Slowly she lets go of him and rolls her shoulders while fighting a yawn. She's defiantly winding back down. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-31 02:23 am UTC (link)
	He lets go of her and gives her a small smile. "You ready to go back or do you want to stay here for a bit?" (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 02:28 am UTC (link)
	"Just need to sit for a bit before that," she admits. "I'm tired and don't feel like moving." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-31 02:37 am UTC (link)
	"That's fine," he reassures her. "...Jess? I'm glad you decided to talk about it." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 02:42 am UTC (link)
	"It's not easy to talk about," she admits uncomfortably. "Thanks for listening." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	in_reserve 2012-01-31 02:46 am UTC (link)
	"I know, that's why I'm glad you did. If you ever needed to again...you can you know." For the first time tonight he blushes a little, he's been in his listen-and-comfort mode the whole time but now it slips a little, "No problem." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 03:28 am UTC (link)
	"Unload," she supplies with innocently raised eyebrows. Then it's just a simple act of blushing because he is. "Um. Yeah." (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)

in_reserve
2012-01-31 04:10 am UTC (link)

The innuendo goes right over his head at the moment, maybe another time he would have got it, he just didn't expect it now.

He sits there awkwardly wondering if he had managed to make the moment that way by blushing alone. He'd been doing so well about avoiding that too! Maybe if he said something to make her feel better...

"Um...well if it helps, you look good green Jess." He really means it in absolutely the best way, she really does look good green to him. Of course he hadn't known her before the whole thing but still, if someone could pull off green it should be complimented right?

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	greenwillpower 2012-01-31 04:22 am UTC (link)
	She had felt the need to tease him. Just to try and get rid of some of the tension she feels. She thought he might have chuckled too. She guesses that he didn't get the joke. And now he is complimenting her so she can feel herself blushing. "I... Um. Thank you. You don't need to...um." Aw hell this was awkward. (Reply to this)(Parent)(Thread)